Monday, February 8, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
hmm..i duno isit cos im a virgo,den virgo tends to treat ppl call 'friends' so impt until sumtimes others may tink im in luv w them..bt im nt!!i may appear to b soooo gd to u all,bt i definitely dn hv e wai thots..nt at all!!!i oso duno isit jz me being sensitive or wat la... i hv learnt to become more appreciative cos i noe ppl nit lotsa appreciations fr frens n fam.. i dn hv those,so i wana gif those.. bt sumtimes im so scare tt being lidat may caused me to lose frens... i dn hv a hapi family,bt i reli hope to hv at least gd frens... hmmm....
i simply love being gd to my close frens...being v v gd... like wateva u wan,if within my means, i will get it for u...like when i c u nit tis,bt u nv sae u nit,i will still wan to get it for u... these actions to sum may tink tt tis kinda tings is onli done by lover.. yes!!i luv my frens...so much tt in e past,i fang qi ai qing cos of a classmate..so much until my mum whack me till i bleed cos of them..
initially dar mentioned tt she dn believe im sooo gd to her for no reason...im sure she believed i hv ulterior motives..hahahaha...bt i tink tt im one who is determined to do my v v v best for ppl whom i tink is worth being my close frens...
when i heard tt tis sum1 is 1 hu is oways being left out,even when they hv bffs, i jz wana teng e person sooo much...i wan them to noe tt dn wori,even if yr bffs nv zhong shi u,i will zhong shi u a lot de..so i wana gif all e tengs i hv to them n let them feel loved...even if they dn treat me as close frens...or as frens..i dn mind... i did all this cos i wan them to be v hapi,i dn wan them to feel like hw i feel in e past.. so alone...when i c wat my bffs nit,i will try get for them..when i noe wat my bffs love to eat,i will gt tt for them...n i will oways care for them...i wan them to feel loved.. bt sumtimes i admit i abit too naggy..lol...
when i noe wat my bffs wan,i reli wana gt those stuffs for them..bt in e end i wun gt,cos they will scold me stupid n stuff,or they will sae tt onli ai ren will do tis kinda tings..bt i hope tt no matter wat i do,they will nv tink tt i treat them well cos im in luv w them..cos tis is sth i HATE... perhaps cos u all r nt me,so u will nv noe hw much i zhong shi my frens...
u noe,in all e frens i zhong shi b4,or even zhong shi nw de,onli dardar is e one who noes me well... den when im pc and dn bother abt her tt much,she is affected by me nt bothering her...at least she cares when i ignore her.. among my frens,onli tt sha gua will tink tis way..sum cant be bothered.. or mayb cos they took my love,teng n care for them for granted.. or mayb is jz tt im too sensitive..
bt recently i felt tt i cud nt fit into any of my fren de picture...like im nt inclusive in their life... i feel so alone... so scary...reli hope one day sum1 will let me in... hahahahaha... hmmm... *sigh*
i simply love being gd to my close frens...being v v gd... like wateva u wan,if within my means, i will get it for u...like when i c u nit tis,bt u nv sae u nit,i will still wan to get it for u... these actions to sum may tink tt tis kinda tings is onli done by lover.. yes!!i luv my frens...so much tt in e past,i fang qi ai qing cos of a classmate..so much until my mum whack me till i bleed cos of them..
initially dar mentioned tt she dn believe im sooo gd to her for no reason...im sure she believed i hv ulterior motives..hahahaha...bt i tink tt im one who is determined to do my v v v best for ppl whom i tink is worth being my close frens...
when i heard tt tis sum1 is 1 hu is oways being left out,even when they hv bffs, i jz wana teng e person sooo much...i wan them to noe tt dn wori,even if yr bffs nv zhong shi u,i will zhong shi u a lot de..so i wana gif all e tengs i hv to them n let them feel loved...even if they dn treat me as close frens...or as frens..i dn mind... i did all this cos i wan them to be v hapi,i dn wan them to feel like hw i feel in e past.. so alone...when i c wat my bffs nit,i will try get for them..when i noe wat my bffs love to eat,i will gt tt for them...n i will oways care for them...i wan them to feel loved.. bt sumtimes i admit i abit too naggy..lol...
when i noe wat my bffs wan,i reli wana gt those stuffs for them..bt in e end i wun gt,cos they will scold me stupid n stuff,or they will sae tt onli ai ren will do tis kinda tings..bt i hope tt no matter wat i do,they will nv tink tt i treat them well cos im in luv w them..cos tis is sth i HATE... perhaps cos u all r nt me,so u will nv noe hw much i zhong shi my frens...
u noe,in all e frens i zhong shi b4,or even zhong shi nw de,onli dardar is e one who noes me well... den when im pc and dn bother abt her tt much,she is affected by me nt bothering her...at least she cares when i ignore her.. among my frens,onli tt sha gua will tink tis way..sum cant be bothered.. or mayb cos they took my love,teng n care for them for granted.. or mayb is jz tt im too sensitive..
bt recently i felt tt i cud nt fit into any of my fren de picture...like im nt inclusive in their life... i feel so alone... so scary...reli hope one day sum1 will let me in... hahahahaha... hmmm... *sigh*
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