sumtimes I tink tis is human being-u want ppl to tell u e truth, but when the truth is being told, u will be reli unhappy! idk lei.. just felt unappreciated at times.. mayb cos tis is a Virgo trait ba.. haix.. unhappy ahh~ at times I feel reli stupid.. for wat sia! ppl dn even bother about u de ma.. like 做贱自己咯.. ahh~~ stupid me!! sianz!!

at work.. work for so long le still Duno hw to read eeg.. Duno I reli stupid ttm or wat sia! haix.. wat a 失败人生 sia.. dumb!! no brain!! regardless of my personal life, my family, my friends, my love life n even at work!!!

to my parents, I'm like a money tree! to my relatives, I'm like a dumb ass.. just a stupid ugly kid nt wanted by any1.. to sum of my frens, mayb I'm oso like shit to them.. mayb shit 都不如.. ok! or mayb I'm jz 自卑吧, hopefully!

jap summary~

itz my 1st blogging aft post jap trip~ LOL.. hmm.. 1st.. xie xie von for accompanying me for breakfast on 27th.. much appreciated~ <3!!

27th: we went to the departure hall, bid goodbye to our frens and off we go to our gate.. abit sua gu tho, 1st time taking A380 ma.. we were supposed to be on e upper deck.. n we kuku go join the q at e main deck... dotz lo... upper deck no q de lo.. hahaha.. off we go... 7hrs in e plane.. we ate.. we watched movies.. n ta da~~ arrived..!! e 1st ting we did when we touched down- on iphone wireless.. hoping to tap to their wireless.. sian de.. limited wireless.. grrr~ den we lug our luggies, went to change n reserved our JR pass n shinkansen seats~aft tt search for our mercure hotel shuttle bus pickup plc.. went to get dinner (yaa.. we ate mac for dinner tt day).. den shuttle all e way bk to mercure.. wooots~ hotel rm super small.. din even noe whr e aircon switch is at.. dotz!! mayb due to lack of water.. new environment.. i shi mian le~~ n till i abt to slp den realised e aircon switch is jz nxt to me.. part of e alarm clock sia.. dotz!!! hahaha.. stuffy for sooo many hrs in e room~~

28th: woke up early in e morning... check out fr hotel cos we din noe whr our train stn were... n ya.. in e end.. itz reli jz 5mins walk.. v near... bobian lo.. settle dn for breakfast at mac again.. apparently, most of their brekkie like sold out la.. tis n tt oso dn hv.. dotz!! hahaha...aft breakfast.. we rushed to tk our narita express, onli to realised we missed it! in e end, we took boso express~ to tokyo (btw, while waiting for e train, thrs a jap obasan asking us if e train goes to tokyo.. we were like errr... bt mayb cos she obasan abit blur gua).. hahaha.. den off we go.. took shinkansen to shin osaka.. took e local train to osaka.. den waited for our shuttle~ reached hyatt hotel.. staff reli gd.. stayed in a reli big n nice hotel.. woohoo~ rushed to aquarium n then ringu factory outlet( tis ringu trip to n fro cost us $30/pax).. 1.5hrs each time~ insufficient time.. in e end rushed n din reli buy much.. yes!! totally forgot abt our dinner.. we drank a cup of bb tea(thru anyhw point n trying our luck)n so we bought cup noodles fr 1 of their convenience stores bk to hotel.. happy cos thrs free wireless~ woohoo~ watched xin bing lo.. aft tt slp...

29th: went USJ(crowded w ppl cos still sch hol, we din get to play much.. haix..) n den aft tt went isetan at osaka stn.. bought katsu dinner bk to hotel~ weee.. n yes... we wasted 500yen each cos we din tk e paid shuttle bus bk fr usj.. on top of tt we still went to tk local trains.. which cost us $$ la..

30th- checked out fr hyatt.. took shinkansen bk to tokyo... left our luggies in a locker... rushed to disneysea... still... crowded dao~ sianz.. so once again... we paid $110 to go in shopping... bought a few exclusive duffy n shelly bears... jz few of these bears cost me $200... wa... hahaha.. den went searching for keio hotel lo.. poor us.. cos itz raining.. haix.. we lugging our luggies everywhr.. den immediately aft putting our lugs in our room, we went to e convenience store dnstairs n spent like nearly $20 on food, drinks n ice cream.. n we used our wireless online again lo..

31st:on course till 3.. we went searching for taka (took us an hr lor) den din buy anyting.. n we walked bk.. waited for dinner(company treat) at a sky restaurant.. den went bk hotel slack le...

1st-yaya.. typhoon.. so we actually took 4 hrs by car to the factory.. n another 4hrs+ back.. so whole day spent in e car.. sianz.. bt abit rude.. cos we 2 totally concussed la.. damn bao qian to e driver.. oopz~ reached hotel abt 7 den she dn wana go out.. so we slacked in hotel lo..

2nd: hosp visit.. b4 tt we subway to isetan walk walk.. aft hosp visit, rushed to hello kitty sanrio puroland lo.. den went daiso walk walk.. aft tt travel bk.. went keio departmental store dabao dinner..slack in hotel again~

3rd: went gotemba factory outlet... bigger n more variety... bought lil stuff tho.. all ralph lauren tops for cousin, god daughter n god son.. ah teng n me too~ LOL.. aft tt went shibuya blue label( who noes tt day closed for private sales.. grrrr) den we went tokyu plaza n aft tt to agnes b shop(whr i bought a bag thr for nana.. itz a lot cheaper but if i were to buy for myself.. sure she bu de.. cos still nt cheap~ haix but she dn like la.. muahaha.. nt her style ma.. bobian la~

4th: went mt fuji but cant cant go mt fuji.. so stopped at hakone.. aft hakone, we went shibuya again.. to e blue label shop.. bt again, din buy anyting.. lol...aft tt forgot dinner den we ate maggi again.. lol

5th: went disneyland.. managed to play more games... hehe.. den saw mickey n friends as well.. aft tt bought sum stuffs fr thr as well.. hehe.. i wana go again~~ hahaha

6th: went tokyo tower... ate curry rice fr tokyo curry lab.. aft tt rushed to narita airport,bought tokyo banana etc thr.. had jap dinner thr n aft tt, ta da.. home at 3am... LOL..

end of summary~~ =D

sianz.. li li bie bie...

ok.. 1 of my colleague's last day is on 5th july (tmr).. sadded.. it came as a surprise to me on a v slpy tue n like i will b working w her e whole of nxt wk den we wun mit anymore.. even on her last day.. shitz..! haix.. she bu de sia.. sianz... 1 person less le.. hope she will come bk sing wk lor! sad.. till nw still trying to tell myself she leaving, cos apparently she is 1 of my closest colleague le.. tk bus to n fro wk, go lunch n sumtimes dine out at nex etc tog, live near each other etc..

she is my no 2 cool cool fren.. lol.. jz like nana.. haha.. tho nana nt so cool nw.. heh heh.. bt i prefer present de na.. LOL.. anw.. hope tt all is fine for her, will remain hapi n find a job fast fast.. quite sad de lei.. no matter wat we hv alr developed frenship le ma.. shes my almost daily msg kaki lei.. gt wk tog or nt oso will msg.. oso duno wat we talking sia. haha..

been feelin rather emo recently.. duno y.. pms i guess.. nw preparing for jci audit.. aft audit gg jap str (hopefully dn gt major happenings).. LOL.. bt rather hapi cos hv been meeting my lovelie nana for many days.. hahaha.. jz enjoy meeting them.. enjoy their company.. even if it means doing nothing, n practically nothing. hahaha.. i reli hope we wun drift apart too far tho. jz like dar n me.. initially close.. den 1 mth meet few times... nw... dn even noe half a yr got meet 1x anot.. haiz..

anw.. hope all my loves will b healthy n happy oways.. lazy to blog le.. tas~

boring life me!

hmm... on nite shift today.. supposedly got willah acc me de, cos gt a mrsa pt.. bt turned out pt condition worsened.. so cancel test.. n nw, here, im all alone..

anw.. ytd i was pondering... y m i oways so free.. kp gg to find my frens.. tink they all muz b tinking y m i so free la.. duno lei.. i feel so weird de.. on my free days jz wana go c my frens lor.. i may hv lotsa frens bt ppl whom is reli impt to me is onli like tt few.. LOL.. they muz b damn irritated to c me lor!! i tink.. lol.. gg suntec main purpose is to acc ah na.. jz dn wan her to feel so bored at wk, tho i guess i thr oso dn help ease her boredom la.. bt @ least im thr ma.. can da bao food for her, can listen to her stories, can wuliao wu liao w her la.. dn mind 2b at her svr anytime. tho to her mayb im nt even her fren. haha.. bt still, i wun mind! haha.. go hougang abit bored la.. cos nth to do seriously.. ah teng bz w her bb tea.. lol.. im onli blocking ppl's way nia.. hahaha.. bt promised to look for her when free.. ahh.. cant my life lighten up abit?? r tt e woes of a single? or it occurs to ppl who r attached as well?? or isit jz me?

na's bday over le.. i done a card n scrapbook for her.. scrapbook idea came when we were in shanghai at e notebook store when they bought many stuffs.. was tinking wana do sth special as a bday gift.. LOL.. went dhoby ghaut duno how many thousand times le.. made w luv, paper market to n fro.. went ion n orchard central bookstore as well.. den to raffles city papermarket n parkway scraperlicious.. i wud sae scrapbooking is nt sumting tt is ez to do.. esp to ppl like me.. lotsa materials to get.. lotsa research to do, lotsa ideas to generate.. idk if she likes them anot.. saying abt tt, it reminds me of e scrapbook dar done for me.. my roommate threw it away.. =( haix.. tt is 1 of my precious ting.. ahhh!! sad.. e scrappie ah.. i got many mini notes here n thr de.. bt on 2nd tots, i gave it up.. dn wana b so losoh.. haha..

idk y i gave e idea to ppl tt i wun reject anyting no matter wat my frens wan me to do.. but u all r wrong.. i onli will nt reject my lovelies n besties requests. cos i knew e rejected feeling.. bu hao shou ma.. i dn wan them to feel tt way.. as long within my means, i will do it de.. bt sumhw to them, it is a diff ting.. n tt sumhw mk me feel so... na men! cos they duno tt im doing it for them n them ONLY! many other stuffs oso.. i admit im nt a v sociable person.. as in.. my expressions r reli horrible.. i sumhw dn like to express too much out in front of ppl, even to those im close w de.. bt i wud express it in my msges.. LOL..

actu my intention is to celebrate na's bday sumday at sentosa de.. of course nt USS la, cos she oso dare nt tk many of e rides.. bt play e other stuffs in sentosa.. n prob stay a nite at hard rock hotel. den we can stay thr till late late no prob.. n eat cake cake.. long time nv eat bday cake le.. LOL.. wat a stupid excuse! bt 1st, i doubt she will b interested.. 2nd, tink she will scold me lor.. sae i waste $$.. 3rd.. onli we 3 person tink she will b bored to death la.. hahaha.. anw.. celebrate is cos i wan my lovelie to b hapi aft all e sad stuffs.. n 2nd, b4 she become v sian abt bday (aging signs) hehehe... jz play play lor.. hahaha.. 3rd is cos ah teng nv go sentosa too la.. haha.. heng no1 will c tis blog, if she happen to read tis ah.. tink she gona dots n diaoz n scold me lor!! hahaha.. i guess..

so u c.. my life reli surrounds my frens onli rite... omg!! tis is part of virgo traits ba.. n to sum, im jz purely wuliao ba.. haha.. to cont my blog another day.. losoh enuf le.. watch show time.. hahaha

jz for u nana

itz been a long time since I last updated my bloggie.. spider web everywhere le.. actu I jz wana blog.. haix.. been feeling quite 'heavy' recently.. nana.. hope she's alright ya.. hope tt she will get over it asap.. =( haix.. my lovelie feeling so sad yet I can't do anyting.. tis is e worse ever feeling sia.. u noe.. moodless..

felt sooo redundant.. argh!! nana.. 不要那么不开心.. I noe saying tis is useless nw.. who wun feel sad.. I oso noe saying tis dn help to ease anyting.. still.. nana, I reli hope u will b bk to yr hapi self again..

everytime when ppl tell me tings, I felt so useless.. cos I'm reli reli v lousy in consoling ppl.. I reli Duno wat to say.. haix.. y m I so bad in doing all these? n cos I Duno hw to console, u noe, e 1st ting I wana do is to hug them.. gif them a big hug.. lend them my shoulder.. bt when face to face w them, I Duno hw to approach them.. v useless ba~ =( I'm sori nana.. I can't b of any help to u.. sobs..

I noe nana wun even read my blog, bt still, I wana say: nana, 你要加油喔！要坚强！但我不希望你逞强！在我面前你不要hide yr feelings ma.. dn oways mk me feel so redundant la.. I still got my ears, shoulders, eyes, emotions n mental to lend u de.. u wan borrow hw long oso no probx de.. 24/7 thr for u.. as long as u nit it!! my mouth abit stupid la.. haha.. bad at consoling.. in anw, u wan oso can borrow!! bt seriously, na, muz tk gd care of yrself~ rest well~ =* haix.. =(

from: useless junie =(