a day in vivo with ting...lol

went out with tingting today....supposed to mit at 12pm,end up become nearly 2pm..so kuku....no schedule of whr to go...hahaha...we went marche for our lunch(her treat),then we went to look for her lappie stuff..ooo....sayin abt tt...my mum helped her student sell a sony vaio lappie ma...then i come to noe tt ting wanted one,so i asked her la..hahaha...negotiated the price with my mum...actually she insisted on reducing by $100 onli..then ting kept askin when to collect her lappie...diao...haha..like scare i will cheat her lidat..haha..so the nxt day aft worked she came over to my place la..stayed over...hahaha...funi nite tho...hahaha...

we bought a laptop case,a mouse n notebook cooler...hope shes happy with it...hahaha...the case n mouse initial price was $99 n $89 respectively...duno y thr is sucha offer at $39 each...wa...hahaha...anw..aft tt we went walking ard then went to catch a movie...you dn mess with zohan...kuku show...went winter time awhile b4 we go hm..short day rite??ahahha...i find it short too!!hahaha...wat a short off day....LOL

then we were jokin abt COWS....ooooo....hahaha...we 2 tis mth so many off days tog,bt nxt mth 1 same off day oso bo...hahahahahhaha...is like i off today,she off tmr..sth lidat...hahahaha...kuku de...lol...okla....overall today still okok...hahahaha

kungfu panda.........happenings to me!!

today....finally i get to watch kungfu panda....LOL....ting volunteered to watch with me...hahaha... tho i guess she dun reli wana watch de ba..hahaha...then i asked how eng along...hahaha...so kuku...aft wk we rushed to GV marina to watch lor....very funi show...kuku show...lamey show...hahahaha...no wonder sooo many ppl praised the show...hahaha...i laughed my heart out...hahaha...today thru-out the day was also a good day...hahaha...fun working...lol...laughing n laughing...same for the past few days...hahaha...=)

since last wed,i hasn't been feeling well...nausea,bone ache,fever...then come thursday onwards...diarrhea the whole day until today...almost a week...everyday lidat...it turned out tt i started to shh shh fr the back......until ytd then my nanny mentioned tt i might be suffering from gastric flu...bt oh well...they treated me...n here im...fine n well again!!lol...my secondary immune system begin workin i guess...LOL...bt im almost dehydrated....reli is 'green face white lips'...hahaha...in chinese idiom...

wah..jialak man...seems to me tt elna n ting noes my personality well..cham le...all my ruo dian they noe le...ohoh...hahahha...well well...nth much le....jz update for fun..wana rest le....

不开心的两个星期。。

最近心情好坏喔！我的室友都想害死我。那样对我喔。我最近一直给人骂。每天都打来。我开始有了恐惧。看到我家打来的，我就好怕好怕咯。怎么这样啊？我好害怕。我不想接的，但又不能喔。我好想找朋友诉苦，但我又找不到。那一天，他从十点骂到三点咯。什么家人!选择相信外人。就最近都要崩溃了。我真的好辛苦咯。还要装没事，还不能大声地哭。我真的没想太多咯。他真的是那样说的。他说我是多余的，应该死掉咯。有时好想有一个人在旁听我说，我那一天一直一直哭，每晚都睡不着，睡不好。我很怕会被骂，那应该是因为我不喜欢争吵吧！每次一被骂，我心里的怕回来了。会令我想起以前的事喔。我就会感觉没安全感，很空虚。但你们都不了解，只会说我想太多。一些安慰的话都没有！我有多害怕你懂吗？我现在真的很累了！为什么有你在我生命里？为什么我都没有家的温暖的？

我好开心以为真的能看到bren了。但她又不能meet我了。最近在我身上发生了很多不开心的事，婷不了解我，以为终于能和bren见面了，这样我有了我好朋友的hugs.心里会比较舒服，没那么害怕了。但她又不能meet了。我没生气啦。只是我期待的那一个hug都没了！我几时才能有个很棒的hug呢？有时不需要说什么，就抱一下我就开心了。因为至少懂有人疼我。我心情也轻松多了。我觉得如果真的有人那么做，我会哭的。因为我忍很久了。只想大哭一下。

我以为能去看kungfu panda的，现在不能了。我还很开心的告诉大家我终于能和我最好的朋友见面了。我多么的期待，因为我要我好友的hug，也要见见面啦。只有她了解我吧！我觉得啦。为了她，我都拒绝和von n ting看咯。现在呢？都不见面了。找我吃个饭也好嘛。

我希望我家人不会又打来骂我，伤我自尊。我相信我比野狗来的好吧！不要再说我连野兽都不如了好吗？到现在，虽然我外表很开心，但其实我还是好不开心的。我很想躲起来，不要和任何人再伤我。我想当一只乌龟，害怕时，能躲在自己的壳里。我好怕以前的事又会发生在我身上。我受不了了。怎么办？救救我好不好？我现在的感觉就是一个人而已。真的感觉到很无助喔。这种怕着过日子的生活我快要受不了了。二十二年了。够了。累了。我真正的开心到底在哪里？真的有人把我当家人吗？有人把我当好友吗？我好怕，好乱喔！

我真的很想抱着我好友痛哭一场，然后就好了。真的！='(