emotional 1st mth...

recently got a new job.. idk wat to feel.. just felt soooo lost thr... duno is cos im still new thr or wat...like sooo alienated... deep inside, i felt reli unhappy n lonely... bt come to tink abt it, if hospi nv hire me, n im still at wintertime, still sian cos most prob im still at MBS... aiya... duno la... probably is lidat ba... tis is work life... the onli ting left is the ppl thr... i felt sooo happy seeing them... c my 2-3 loveloves thr... felt overjoyed.. esp when thrs sth for me to look fwd to aft wk.. for nw, still ok la.. bt once peak period, they wud b sooo bz... den i oso cant go find them like now.. sumtimes i gt the idea of secretly workin thr during peak period... mayb cos i used to bz bz.. mayb jz wana wk tog w them again... mayb jz nt used to the overly free life.. i hated the lonely empty feeling.. reli dreaded it.. bt wat can i do?? can onli go find frens to relieve tt feel.. sooo miserable rite... like sooo despo to hv that feel being filled up..doubt many hv tt same kinda feel as i does.. cos they r all surrounded by ppl.. by besties, bf or gf, relatives, siblings or family.. haix...emo emo...

tink e lonely me gona celebrate my lonely bday alone tis yr... mayb i shld nt tk leave on tt day... cos i dn wana go round begging ppl to acc me go out etc.. aiya... still long... shall c hw la... hahaha..

last bt nt least, i hope tt my lovelies will oways b happy, xing fu, healthy n well... i noe all of them seldom or nv come my bloggie de... bt still... i jz wana sae i will be avail for all of u 24/7.. if u nit my companionship, nit any help... feel free to approach me k.. i dn mind being e spare tyre.. like when u all cant find any1, can find me k... even if in future i hv my own fam(hopefully i will have la), u all will still be my precious de loveloves... muackz... =D

reflection n happenings for e mth of may... lol

recently aft wk ar...i c tis auntie... she used her own $$ to buy lotsa meow meow food n feed the meows dnstair... hmm... tis auntie soo kind sia... i dn tink i will lidat one lor... aiyo... everyday w/o fail sia... n u will c her walk here n thr finding n feeding cats.. tt was aft wk at abt 1145+... den today ahhh...i came hm abt 8+ den i saw her feeding a kitten wor... wa... den is 1 pack of food.. so nice of her sia... hahaha... in tis world oso gt sucha nice person... hehe



anw... my nanny is back hm aft few days of hospitalisation.. heng ahh... onli acute cystitis, gross hematuria n UTI... shes bk bt she still nit to hv e catheter on her to monitor her urine... bt sooo clear le... no longer e bloody urine..so happy...n she look healthier le...



recently worked at MBS... is reli v SIAN one lor... no ppl... long hrs(tho hrs e same as other outlets, onli tt gt shift) den soooo far away fr teng n nana... walao.. boring dao~~ miss them dao~~then no music... damn boring.. sum more e shift sucks... esp e nite shift... sian... until 11pm.. lethargic sia... den worse is when u conseq 3 days wk fr 1230-11,den e nxt 3 conseq days is wk fr 10-830.. v v tiring lor!!! off day onli 1 wk once.. worse.. onli gt insects accompany u... v v bad backache...v slpy n tired... haix.... den limited transportation... so sian...



bt itz ok... cos my last day is on 25th... HAHA... aft tt gona go wk at a hospital le.... bt for e time being, still hafta start trainin at AH man... hopefully i can excel in tt job... hahaha... bt i will definitely mis teng they all de... =( pls do kp in contact ok... i dn wan like drifting apart... cos i tink itz happening btn all my frens... in sec, lost contact w pri frens.. in poly, lose contact w sec frens.. nw wkg, lose contact w poly frens.. mayb shld sae rarely... even w ah dar oso.. haix.. i noe we all bz, bt i hp we all wud be able to mit at least once a mth or sth... pls pls... hahahas....

muahaha..ytd went to sign my contract w a hospital.. so hapi n so sad..hapi cos I gt a job w higher pay n more relevant w my course of studies...(tho nt v relevant) hehe..sad cos I gona miss ah teng they all..afterall,I witnessed my 'son' birth till nw..tog w his 2 main mummies.. gg to another plc to witness e birth of another son..wahaha.. n e worst ting of all is tt I can't even wk in sc for my remaining days~ haix.. sianz :-(


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my ren sheng da shi...lol

recently kp niaming abt work... then today we were complaining abt long wking hrs, low pay n benefits.. hehe... den aiyo...i sudd realise hor..im reli wasting my time n youth sia... lol.. low pay... no social life... den die liao.. wait cant marry out how?? hahaha... start to worry.. heex... tink hor.. muz go find a matchmaking centre liao... lol.. go find a cheaper one..lol.. e person gd jiu hao le.. muahahaha.. n gt enuf $$ to yang me.. wahahahaha... scary lei..im so old liao...yet... yet... aiyo... hw man?

post fr yr auntie junie... lol

hmm...wa...困难一直冲着你来，但放心啦~一切一定会顺顺利利的！我会一直帮你祈祷祈祷祈祷着的，最爱的朋友！哈哈... don't worry la... dn kp tinking of e unhappy stuff...wateva u hv,jz enjoy.... dn brood on it ya..?? cos brooding on it will dampen yr mood nia.. =) hmm...in e meantime, pls do tk gd care ya... dn let yr flu bring u dn... slp n rest early n more... den will fast fast recover... den can enjoy yr trip lotsa ma rite... can look 4ward to big big bb tea, nice food, nice shoppings n sceneries, nice SHOWs, n nt forgetting, getting lotsa nice stuff for junie la~ wahahaha.. =p hmm... ehh... kuku ''妹妹''ar...dn b kuku kuku ar~cos e kuku title onli belongs to junie ar... waahahaha... muz b happy n cheerful ar... lidat mood better, den everyting will be better as well ar... good tings will definitely come to u ya..!! heex... if gt chance, mit me at dreamz.com cos thr gt me ar... whr u can throw all yr angrys, unhappys, bad lucks, and claim all yr harpi, cheers, good lucks and 顺利fr thr de.. n ohya... rem to throw all yr germs thr as well ar.. kp yrself healthy ohh~ drink more water, even when yr thr ar..知道吗？要听阿姨junie的肺腑之言哦！！！ huggies!! =) tink tis abandoned bloggie wun b seen, bt still, 希望u will ‘收到' 哦!! hehehe...

Hopes

I hope tt nana stuff will b smooth n nicee.. Everyting will move to e bright side.. N tt everyting will b ok for her.. Hehe.. Jz let all e suay ting happen to me la..since I'm alr so suay... Lol... It doesn't matter more or less.. Best is suay until my life can b taken, cos I dn hv hope n will to live on further..take my life by all means, bt on a request tt all their suay bad tings fall on me n all e gd tings happen to nana,dar n all my other besties la... :-D pls let my tis hope come true~

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sad....

i reli duno wat to do?reli am at a loss... i wana save up to settle my debts... i wana save up to pay all my debts... sumtimes these r driving me crazy... my allowances debts,exam fees etc... secondary sch debts... even c doc oso nit to borrow fr others... den it amts up to a lump sum.. previously sae will help me pay them bk.. cos afterall tis kinda tings is parents pay de.. bt they pi gu sao sao left a sum here.. den over thr, cos they refused to pay for my spects, nanny niece lent me $ to buy them...den misc stuffs oso nanny niece pay for me.. all in my lower secondary years.. den wat happen? im left to pay another sum here... nvm.. they initially scolded me.. refused to let me study poly... cos SHE she bu de spend her $$ on me...i tried n find ways to pay sch fees.. in e end came to noe CPF can pay..in future den pay bk... nw i hv another sum to pay.. den come to gg aussie study... borrowed fr eddie kor a lump sum of $$ to study... dad sister oso lent us... these sum of $$ my dad sae will settle w me...share e load.. wat crap...!!! they borrow n borrow fr everywhr.... den wat hv they done?? they pi gu sao sao den jz drop e whole lump sum of $$ owed on me.. den i hv to pay.. do any of yr noe tt jz tinkg of e sum i hafta pay reli stressed me???

den came a dad who kp tinkg unrealisticly... stock n stock..forex n forex.... bt whr is e money?? dn u tink tt wkg is more realistic den idling at hm??? den came a mum hu is sucha gambler...so addicted to gambling... both of them instead of helping me tink of ways to clear my debts,they actu increase my debts..WT..!!! borrowed fr here n thr... n even borrowed sooooo much fr me!!! im reli reli scare they will be like last time, pi gu sao sao jiu zou... den im reli dead...

tinkg of e debts i hv alr made me soooo depressed... having sucha money grubber parents made me more depressed... i feel sooo xin ku... i feel so beng kui... i feel so tired... i dn wana b soo debt-ridden... n do u noe e stress my fam is giving me?? my aunt n uncle kp telling me abt e $$ my parents owed them... u noe... im all alone... when i feel so pc tt time,who can i tell?? cant tell any1.. everytime when i tink of e $,i reli get v v depressed.. i wud cry...

when im soo upset, i reli gt e impulsiveness to kill myself... jump off a building, poison myself, cut myself or let myself b knocked dn.. bt... i realised im a coward... serious... when i imagine i wana jump, i dn tink i hv e courage to do sooo... omg!!! sooo qiao bu qi wo zi ji sia!!

haix... how?? i feel soooo alone... wana find sum1 to talk to, bt i duno wat to sae.. bt i hate being alone...cos alone e stress is more...e stress is thr... sooo stressful... bt no matter hw, i feel soo alone... im oways trying to let all nt feel alone yet im oways being left alone in e end... =( emoooo... tell u... i reli hated tis kinda feeling... i can be alone bt i dn wana be alone.... i oways envy ppl who is nt alone... they oways at least hv sum1 to b w them.. bt i dn... i dread being alone..bt im oways being left alone in e end... ='( hope tis feel will go off asap......

felt better writing it out.... heex.... felt bettter aft crying... felt happier cos nana called me... heex.. gan dong gan dong... bt when i wana sae sth, tears welled my eyes.. den in e end i dn wana sae anyting... wahaha.. bt im reli hapi for nana's care... thanks nana... muackz!! =) n thks sheryl jiejie for yr concern... hmm...thks my dardar too!! =)

lastly,i wana go holiday!!!managed to ask von go during May bt nw no promo... hw sia??? =(

Sad n sian

Haix..so upsetting..dn understand y I hv such parents...kp borrowin fr me..worse of all,e Amt kp increasing...n hv nv tot of returning...wat the ****!!! I hated using vulgarities..bt nw I reli feel like using!!damn!!irritating!!!I hate them I hate them I hate them!!!!!!!!!!! =(

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啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！我要出国，我要出国，我要出国！！！！！！ 带我出国，陪我出国啦~ 哈哈哈哈哈哈！！好想出国咯！！！ =）

hmm..i duno isit cos im a virgo,den virgo tends to treat ppl call 'friends' so impt until sumtimes others may tink im in luv w them..bt im nt!!i may appear to b soooo gd to u all,bt i definitely dn hv e wai thots..nt at all!!!i oso duno isit jz me being sensitive or wat la... i hv learnt to become more appreciative cos i noe ppl nit lotsa appreciations fr frens n fam.. i dn hv those,so i wana gif those.. bt sumtimes im so scare tt being lidat may caused me to lose frens... i dn hv a hapi family,bt i reli hope to hv at least gd frens... hmmm....

i simply love being gd to my close frens...being v v gd... like wateva u wan,if within my means, i will get it for u...like when i c u nit tis,bt u nv sae u nit,i will still wan to get it for u... these actions to sum may tink tt tis kinda tings is onli done by lover.. yes!!i luv my frens...so much tt in e past,i fang qi ai qing cos of a classmate..so much until my mum whack me till i bleed cos of them..

initially dar mentioned tt she dn believe im sooo gd to her for no reason...im sure she believed i hv ulterior motives..hahahaha...bt i tink tt im one who is determined to do my v v v best for ppl whom i tink is worth being my close frens...

when i heard tt tis sum1 is 1 hu is oways being left out,even when they hv bffs, i jz wana teng e person sooo much...i wan them to noe tt dn wori,even if yr bffs nv zhong shi u,i will zhong shi u a lot de..so i wana gif all e tengs i hv to them n let them feel loved...even if they dn treat me as close frens...or as frens..i dn mind... i did all this cos i wan them to be v hapi,i dn wan them to feel like hw i feel in e past.. so alone...when i c wat my bffs nit,i will try get for them..when i noe wat my bffs love to eat,i will gt tt for them...n i will oways care for them...i wan them to feel loved.. bt sumtimes i admit i abit too naggy..lol...

when i noe wat my bffs wan,i reli wana gt those stuffs for them..bt in e end i wun gt,cos they will scold me stupid n stuff,or they will sae tt onli ai ren will do tis kinda tings..bt i hope tt no matter wat i do,they will nv tink tt i treat them well cos im in luv w them..cos tis is sth i HATE... perhaps cos u all r nt me,so u will nv noe hw much i zhong shi my frens...

u noe,in all e frens i zhong shi b4,or even zhong shi nw de,onli dardar is e one who noes me well... den when im pc and dn bother abt her tt much,she is affected by me nt bothering her...at least she cares when i ignore her.. among my frens,onli tt sha gua will tink tis way..sum cant be bothered.. or mayb cos they took my love,teng n care for them for granted.. or mayb is jz tt im too sensitive..

bt recently i felt tt i cud nt fit into any of my fren de picture...like im nt inclusive in their life... i feel so alone... so scary...reli hope one day sum1 will let me in... hahahahaha... hmmm... *sigh*

san ge yuan wang

i simply love tis song...hehehe...

三个愿望
by liang wen yin




你开始会计划未来了
那恋人正拿我看心灵的存折
像火星的脾气少很多
很忙也会记得抽空练完

你做的事我都看见了
所以抱你你的时候眼里红红的
就算你有时候会犯错
怎么想都在不开心什么

你答应送我三个愿望
第一个希望你能健康开朗
第二个希望我能更懂体谅
第三个希望我们永远有话讲

其实我不用三个愿望
每一天都有感动值得收藏
每一夜天使陪我祈祷仰望
每滴泪都被你的魔法变阳光

因为很爱所以会想通
不再去坚持己见让彼此难过
当感情很稳定很浓厚
退让也会有种甜蜜感受

你答应送我三个愿望
第一个希望你能健康开朗
第二个希望我能更懂体谅
第三个希望我们永远有话讲

其实我不用三个愿望
每一天都有感动值得收藏
每一夜天使陪我祈祷仰望
每滴泪都被你的魔法变阳光

感谢我们的爱情没有翅膀
一步步走在往幸福的路上
再用足够时间好好欣赏
让开心春夏秋冬四季的风光

其实我不用三个愿望
每一天都有感动值得收藏
每一夜天使陪我祈祷仰望
每滴泪都被你的魔法变阳光

angry angry!!curse tt thief!!!

haix...recently so suay....my hp kena stolen sia...itz my dad's hp actually...hmm...muz go find n buy bk the hp..gt any lobang??Nokia N95 8gb de??reli reli hated the person who stolen the hp.... idiot!!!when i tot tt i muz wk w a thief(w/o knowing hu),damn down lor... reli hor... haix.. seriously muz curse tt whoeva... i mean... stealing... whoeva u r, hw old r u le?? walao.. the more i tink abt it,the angrier i become... hated the person who stole the hp,nt onli cos she/he stole the hp, bt oso caused my ah tao jie feel bad.... it made me double+triple hate tt person... ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY!!!!!

anw..i reli kai bu liao kou tell my parents the hp being stolen...hw sia?? hmm..... reli hor... haix...damn sian,damn sad,damn down..if itz my own hp at least the feeling nt tt bad...bt.. wa..duno hw man...cos the hp model in normal singtel,nokia shop no more le...hafta go 2nd hand shop look c... hmm.. suan le...dn dread on it....hmmm... gona go orh orh niao... hahaha...

saddie....

wow...recently wk until blur blur sia...as in,duno lei...easily get irritable,n v v tired,even if 2 days ago i jz had my off... hmm..den abit dread gg to wk...bt i mean,still ok la...nt v serious la...tink every1 oso same same ba...hehe... hmm... still feeling very lost everyday... go bk hm mk me feel unhapi n stress...go bk to my own hm mk me feel so upsetting...jz so down... jz feel so unwanted n left out everywhr i go... soso alone... so so dn hv the being care n loved feeling..wonder y i wud feel tis way sia... bt sumtimes once i felt alil loved or care,den im sooo hapi.. tink thrs sumting wrong w me..!!hw sia??

i mean, altho i can be alone, i jz cant tolerate the kinda 'alone' feeling.. n it seems to get worse as days goes by... can sum1 help me?? feel rather depressed bt thrs no1 to turn to... memory like decelerating at a very fast speed...den very uneasy everywhr...wana find ppl to jz let out bt duno who to... den abit onli i wana cry liao...haix..so sicked of myself..!!y m i so problematic??

hmm...dn tok bt unhapi stuff le...hahaha... hmm... recently im soo sooo hungry for teng teng wor...hahaha...anw... my off day flu is here again... haiyo...4eva lidat de... hahahaha... boring boring ar...nth to diary abt...hahahaha... fine...go play games le....tata....!!hahaha

enjoyed myself @ nana's plc... n craps....lol

hahaha...c gt wat happenings... eh.... wa...jz happened to weigh myself and ta da... i hv lost another 2kg fr the last time(15 sept) woah....c...the results of hving a supervisor who oways bully me de...ke lian rite... hehehe... bleah~~hahaha.. just joking..

recently @ wk startin to feel so lethargic...so tired...look @ the storeroom nia so sian...hahahaha.. so small space....so many tings... hahaha... anw...2 days back aft wk went nana's hse n stayover... hehehe... b4 tt went to watch movie la.... mayb cos scare i cant wk up or wat,den i cant slp much... hahaha... probably if the following day is a off day,den i will slp more in peace.. hoho.. bt i enjoyed myself la~ heex.. happy happy~~~

hmm..received my posb bill... wooo... saw partyworld bill...so miss gg to sing sing sing.... hahahaha...simply love gg out... haahaha... tmr gg to isetan to c the japan fair b4 mitting ah dar aft her wk... lol.... nw im rotting @ hm nia... sooo boring.... my poor thumb sooo pain...bt the swell went down abit...haahha...tts all for nw la~~heehehe..

crap 1

hmm... end of my lame story....itz a story....so abit kua zhang...bt the main ting reli happen... wahahahaha....as in...the STARE..~~wahaha

okok...lets crap ard... bt duno hw to start... hahaha... hmm...i wana sae..my nana dn like me.... =( bully me... break oso muz force me to go aft her (wahaha..itz a lie) eh....oways abuse me physically...(wahaha..actually is mentally n emotionally) WAHAHAHAHA...nola....actually is jz the 3 add tog....lol...(another lie)most impt of all,she gave ppl 6 days off,n onli gave me 4...u c u c..!!!isn't tt being bias???cos she dn like me.... to tink i tot shes sooo gd to me...wahahaha...so lame~ nola... jz a joke...hw can it be??my nana sooo luv me(tts my tinkg...wahahaha..nt mentioned by her)....soooo i oso sooo luv her la~~jz like hw i luv my dardar n all la~ hehehe...BLA~~ jz rubbishing ard.. hehehehe...

wa..reli getting older le...jz these recent mths.... many of my close frens,or ex-colleagues or secondary frens,all engaged or married liao...kaoz...tis is sooo sad...hahaha..im stillllll single... wahaha...OMG!!!haha..die la..will i be like left on the shelf?? lol... wait expires jiu cham le..i still wan to hv my own fam de... LOL...wat a lamey ting...

i miss my gan ma etc...hmmm.....so funi...shes onli 5 yrs older than me n shes my mummy??!! hehe..i dn even rem hw come i became her god-daughter sia...hehehe...bt tt was like many yrs le...she sosososo teng me..hehe..@ 1st abit shy shy,den aft tt xi guan liao...kp on 'mummy front,mummy back..' hehe.. shes the 1st person to reli reli teng me n care for me de..my studies n everyting...reli act like my mummy.. hehe..last yr she came wintertime looked for me lei..so harpi...bt onli for tt 1 hr.. =( haha..aft tt she went to brisbane le...we nw onli talked in msn.. i gt a ah dardar...jiemeiz.... heh.... den i gt darlings,dears n baobeis...ohoh.. i gt a ah jie as well..shes my senior...i oso dn rem hw she became my da jie..4 yrs older than me..!!bt short term de la.. onli occasional msg or msn each other..

actually i hv oways wanted to hv jiejies to teng me,or even meimeis for me to teng... sae is sae la..bt if reli hv,mayb itz diff le.. hahaha...bt cos i dn hv,so if i sudd hv 1,i wud reli treasure a lot...hehehe...aiya...since fated dn hv,den oso bo bian la~haha..bt i hope to hv jiejie... hehehe... so childish rite...bt reli lor... i hp to hv lotsa teng teng... tt kinda jiejiely love...hahaha... i c my frens hv den like soo xingfu lidat...i oso wan...hahaha...dar,y nt u upgrade la..become my jiejie,instead of my mei??can??hehehe...bleah~~

crap a lot sia...hmm...recently nana unwell...muz tk care ya.. =) wa...ytd i was like sudd gona die lidat....sooo uncomfy...den today half half....lata in the day begun to feel uncomfy liao...bt still can dong la~hahaha...boring sia...gona orh orh liao..nitez...

short story 1...

junie's short story 1...

title:tales of the staring incident~~ HA HA.. tts sooo lame...
actresses: junie,whitie (i tink is a zha bo..).... HA HA

one fine day,morning,junie went to wk...den aft wk junie took a bus and came home....(tts obvious...) ok...tis is how the story goes...probably a wk ago,my hse the lift under upgrading.. sooo...hafta walk to the other lift to tk the lift la...so itz a lil further fr the bs as usual... actually tis is jz to mk the story longer... WAHHAHAHA... so... eva since tt lift was thr...i,or i shld sae,my nanny daughter n i began to notice tis white cat(which i named it whitie)...this cat eva frighten nanny daughter...n it looked fiercely at her...bt din attack her la~wahaha...den whitie very enjoy life one...oways lying on the platform sunbathing,if nt observing ppl... hahaha... (okok..bk to my story...) sooo,today,tis whitie n me walked the opposite direction.. as in whitie walkin towards me,n i, towards whitie..fr abt a 100m away,we started to STARE at each other..as we walked..we stared...den we stare n stare n stare....hahaha...den at the pt we 'cha jian er guo...',n even walked past each other,we were still staring at each other...den the further we walked,the more we stare..then... .....whitie stopped...it's head turned firmly n staring at me...woooo....sooo fierce.. bt i continued to stare at it...all the way until i was near the lift den i said.... bye-bye....ignore it n continue my walk to the lift... ahhahaha...soooo...isit a nice story?? WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.... lame..~~

sooooo nth to blog part 1...wahahaha

hmm...let me c...got wat to update lei???hahaha...ok... eh... tt day walked past many children boutiques n saw many many pretty dresses...got the itch to buy gif my darling hannah wear...bt hor..come to tink abt it,hannah wear dress looks abit weird..cos shes nt very girly..er...jz like me..im definitely cmi in dresses..hahaha...tho i oways wana try wearing 1..bt...the tot of it....eeee.. wahahaha...anw...so funi...like...sum ppl wear dresses n dressed up girlily wud look so swt n pretty,yet sum look weird..mayb cos i oways c hannah in pants tts y i feel weird..or shld i sae,all my zha bo cousins like dn wear dress de..waahahaha..my mum side de.. genie,rachel,jolene,hannah,me...we r seldom seen in dresses...except sch uni..wahahaha..

eh..ever since duno when,i duno y i began to stink...like....duno lei..bt when i asked my nanny,they sae dn hv ar...haha... im like...even aft shower i still smell...haha..den my nanny daughter sae itz my own tinking...reli meh??oh no..im suffering fr sum psychological prob liao?? haha..leading to me tinkg i stink,or reli i stink??haha..felt v embarrassed lor..hahaha

i oways felt so out of plc...so xtra...so hmm....lost...so left out....hahaha...duno hw to describe sia.. n im so so scare...so so no security...jz like i fell fr sumwhr high above tt feel...or being chased by dinos w no1 saving me kinda ting..wahaha..these 2 days i jz wana hide myself up in a hole n dn come out..nt reli emo la..mayb tryin to tao bi..bt duno wat...jz dn wan ppl to c me in my lousy self i guess..wahahaha...

anw..received bday prezzies fr my colleagues...so harpi...so po fei...aiyo....bt gan dong la~~thankies... lol...then i oso gt a GV buy 1 get 1 tix..until end of tis mth..bt dn tink i can use le la! =( nt much time left anw... hahaha... i had many bday wishes mentioned in an application..hope all come true..if nt...at least let the 1st few come true...hahaha...wat else...the suan ming uncle nt accurate...cos my bday is alr over n my mr right still nt found..??!!! =( how??hahaha

sooo wordy le ar...hmm...then i cont tmr ba...cos sum1 here sae her hse gg to hv a big explosion liao...wahahahhaa...*pray tt all will be gd for my jiejie* hehe..nitenite

my bday....weeee~~hahahaha....

woooo...4 off days.....wat hv i been doin??hahaha....jz lidat n itz gone???!!!!!!hahahaha.... hmm...

14th-worked half day...den aft tt went chinatown with nana..cos she oso claim hr...haha.. den gan dong la...~cos wana get mini bday cake gimme...heex...tian zai xin li....LOL....

15th-my actual bday....dar took half day leave....den we went to orchard central...walked awhile den went to paragon eat sushi tei...brendan came aft tt,den last min decided to go watch movie-G-force....itz soooo cute....hhahaha....aft tt met von then went swensen eat...guanhe came along later on...heex...of course in btn gt lotsa kuku funny tings happening la....cos i hv kuku dar ma...n kuku frens...heex...i had fun tt day too...hapi hapi...!!heex... =)

16th-stayed at hm whole day...rest whole day to prepare for 17th...heex...

17th-went out with nana...hmm...went woodlands de party world...sing sing sing...hahaha...i sing like shit....hahaha....hmm....nana sing soooo niceeee.....hahaha...aft tt went kuishin-bo eat...lol... so bu hao yi si...let her spend so much....hahaha...den walk ard jp lo...haha... hmm...actually seems nth much rite....bt duno lei....i reli had lotsa fun n reli happy...heex...enjoyed myself...soo sooo sooooo sooo hapi...aiyo....gladie...~~

hmm..tis yr my bday seems nicee...seems gd~sumtimes itz nt whr u go tt u enjoy yrself,is the ppl u r with...hahaha....wa...recently duno isit cos i nt enuf slp or wat,i tend to let tings slipped off my mind...sadded!!my memory deteriorating liao...how?? =( hahaha....oh no..am having flu nw~~ hahaha...so random...dotz...

99 yrs old ah ma passed away le...do rest in peace..

hmm...all along i tot i dn feel sad...bt when i went to the wake jz nw,i felt abit of she bu de...n sad... i cant even get to c her 1 last time...i tot i cud peek thru the coffin...bt...it was covered...it was reli a regret...y do i oways hafta wait tings to happen le den i regret?why did i kp procrastinating?? itz like so sudden...the other time with my ah ma oso...haix... i tot of the times when i was young,she took care of me...i like gg dnstair to her hse....she wud gimme swts...on shows let me watch...kp pouring orange soft drink gimme drink...suddenly i so miss her... ah ma, u muz rest in peace k......i will oways rem u.... =(

anw...went to the wake...den wa...every1 knew me...bt i duno majority of them la....den all like... 'wa....y u slim dn soo much??' or wa....'u looked darker...' or...'so long nv cya le.....grow so big n tall le ar....??'wahahahaha....so funi....

today whole day wana roar...ROAR~wahahahaha..... den so moody moody...no mood sia....hmmm... wana slp le....ahhahaha...random~ i muz learn to treasure every1... hehehe... =)

randoming ard...

tt day went mum mum with nana @ swensen...hahaha...hmm...tt nite sooooo fun....sooooo funi.... soooo hapi......cos she lame lame de....then ahhh....we r sitting in front of each other,bt we talk to each other thru FB la~she dn wana hear wat i sae de...so bo bian~~the onli time when she 'listens' to me is onli when i talk abt her gan ma...hehehe...bt i oso duno y tt day like so fun...hahaha....hmmm...nana cham le...she gt the same ear prob as me le.....oh no...!!!hehehehehe...bt im sooooo hapi to hv nana as my fren....hahahaha....so random....lol

hmmm....another day went out with dar for dinner.....went creation eat.....hmm...nana intro de....quite nice....nt bad....den dar n brendan gave me a watch for my bday....wow...!!!so hapi...hahaha....then dar sae im her lucky star cos go out with me nia she managed to find all her ting...hahaha...

hmm...sometimes i find why isit so hard to hv my freedom of talking??was it jz me who does nt wan conflict or wat???am i nt a human??y cant i use the word tired ne??or dn i hv the right to sae im tired??y others can sae tt except me??am i nt wkg?or wat?very funny lei...haix....dn i hv the rite to be unhapi?cant i be unhapi??weird lei...every1 hv their own prob de ar....itz nt wat u tink nia ar....i hv so many other stuffs tt none of u noe de ar....so who r u to sae i dn hv the rights??itz my choice ma....

haha...itz time to change my lappie liao...cos my down arrow spoil le....space bar sumtimes oso sotsot....computer oso problematic at times....slow running....haix.... lol....recently received afew vouchers fr diff plc....then oso receive those complimentary treats or wateva fr diff companies...lol...

recently kp watchin nana's gan ma show...eh....dn hv the show liao den guai guai de....muz hv at least 1 show if nt i feel funi....die la~~tink i gona get poisoned le....cham le~~hahaha....aiyo...randoming ard....hahaha....anw....made a new spec liao....hmmm....so nw den i gt my astig degree....my right ear tt one is 400...left one nth much...the person sae dn nit much notice for the left one...diaoz...so i din noe my degree for my left...hahaha....nth much liao....end of my randoming...~~~hehehe