a letter to my ting ting...n events happening...

我失恋了.好伤心喔.使终朋友还是最好!

阿婷人好好喔.就好感动有她这么好的朋友..好感动她所做的一切..我说我要鸭鸭,她就去买给我.. 我就随口说我想吃一个kuey,她还真的买给我吃喔。。婷婷，你真的好好喔。。谢谢你的友谊，你的疼！！我觉得我好福气有你这个好友，好妹妹！！

就要你知道就算大家看不起你，说你的坏话，不喜欢你，伤害你，你都别去理他。对我来说，你是我的聪明妹妹，是一个我觉得又棒又坚强又独立又好好的人。无论发生什么事，我都是站在你这里的。就算没人信你，我还是会信你的。我会为我们的友谊付出101%的。我爱你喔，我的妹妹，我的好友！！我一定会好疼好疼你的！！哈哈哈哈哈哈！！

my topic...frenship...i hv learnt a lot recently abt frens..once,GM asked me watz my definition of best fren..i reli duno wat to ans...hw do i define fren,good fren n best fren???

i told her based on my gut feelings...i duno...so many good frens,all wrongly chosen...hmm...ppl..im nt as good as u all tink de....to sae the truth...i reli duno hw to define...to me...ppl i tok to...consider my frens le...good frens...ppl i joke ard with..best fren....sum1 hu care for me,noe me inside out,n i noe her/him too...sum1 whom i wud confide in whenever im feeling miserable n sad..nw...i hv 2 best fren...ting n bren... u noe...jiaying seems to noe me better than the rest..she noe my character reli well...assca too...!!they r reli good at observing ppl lo..scary...lol....

guess wat....since ytd until today 10+,i was an illegal immigrant lor...finally nw ok le...if nt hw??i sure jialak...scary lo....hahahaha..anw xuanie...hw???r we gg for our trip???lol...wana go trips with u all....year end planned to go taiwan or HK...wana go??i gt 2 takers currently...



ting ting n me...shes my hao meimei,hao peng you!!!

yupz..gona go slp liao...gotta wk tmr....shall post the rest another day..sleepy le...nite nite..!! =)

photos....

I love tis watch...Adidas de...heh heh heh....i treasure it loads...guess why???


cos itz from my dardar bren bren lo...heex...

tis one lei...my ah siao sista...我的好友婷婷。。

这是鸭鸭。。我最爱的。可爱吗？哈哈。。它是我最爱的婷婷送的。


它是三月二号出世的。哈哈。我也好珍惜它喔！

这是EP wintertime..那一天是个难忘的一天。

这是当天我们四人好“玩”的一天

me,assca and wang teng...ting ting soooo ghostly lo...hhahaha

jo,me and rachel...

baby hannah...sucha smart girl...love her loads...


my cousin...love her!!

im nt gg to study for a yr liao....but...but...y isit that sumhw i feel like gg back le???y in the 1st plc i wana suspend???i duno wat to do lo...hvn cancel my flight..hvn submit my form as well..hmm...i duno la...!!!suddenly feel so tired...wana go bk study liao..hw man??wat to do?

fan ar...!!!hahahaha...i reli wan the duck....shld i buy it tmr at build a bear?????i shld i shld!!!!hahahaha....im nt wkin for the whole of nxt week...hafta settle sch stuff etc...mon gg to chk eyesight,fax stuff etc....then tue gg out...hahaha...

FAN ah!!!FAN ah!!!FAN ah!!!!

nth much..lazy me...

im getting weaker n weaker each day....reli reli reli very tired...hahahaha...now im so puzzled as to go study now or nxt yr...suspending study is fine,bt when i tot of the reason y i stopped abit weird...isit rite to suspend or jz go bk???bt economically,facing a lil probz,bt can b solved if my dad dn invest...duno hw...wat to do man?haix...烦啊！！

finally a off day tmr....hahahahaha...hapi hapi...hmm..then tmr gona go mit wei yee,my hsemate for coffee...dn even noe wat to tell her,or wat to sae...hmm....sian...hahahaha...im confused nw...shld i go bk study???

sadded....suddenly i realised tt so many ppl nt gona wk anymore...haix...then watz the point of stayin???hw?wat to do???hmm...auntie fr tampines called me...wan me go tampines stay if i stay on...for a moment,it seems all arranged by God...lol...i got lotsa stuff to sae,bt lazy...tired...lol....anw..today elna n ting ting come bk liao..hurray!!!nt so quiet in shop le...bt my last day approaching...hmm....

i miss workin in EP with baoyun(kat brother),leonard n anna....fun times oways gone fast!! ='(
working in suntec during these 2 days sudd mk me feel sooooo.......diao...hahahahaha...so many prob start to surface liao....hmm...internal fights esp....sianz lor....haix....sad....i jz din go suntec wk for a week 2 days....so many tings....=(

我累了。。。。。

今天我外婆真的真的离开我们了。从不在家人面前哭泣的我今天忍不了了。我和我表妹，jolene,说好不能太emo..但当我看见我外婆，想到生前很吵的她等我就已经要流泪了。我还是忍着，直到我大姨大声地哭，说新年没得见到她，吃她煮的食物等，我就流泪了。jolene也是咯。看着她被推进火场时，我又再次的哭了。说走就走了，都没流下什么流言。如果她能听到恩喜(baby hannah)一直在叫她，不知她会有多么的开心咯。我没了外婆。好伤心，好难过。Ah ma,rest in peace,i will oways rem u...

我真的好累好累。。累了，很想休息，一个人过这个无聊的人生。不想一直烦我朋友。。经神上累了，心灵上也累了，就整个人都好累好累。想出国走走，但一个人，又能去哪里呢？='(
最近又需要做工，又不能在suntec做。。想念suntec的朋友，同事。

今天在eastpoint和anna,leonard还有kat弟弟做工还蛮好玩的。就不会想到外婆等。哈哈。好期待星期三和bren出去看戏。想睡了，晚安。

伤心的我，多谢有你们。。。

好伤心喔。。我外婆去世了。就这样她走了。最近我都好烦好烦。我不是一个好家人，也不是一个好朋友。我对自己的要求很高。我好不开心。觉得我是个坏人，只会让我周围的人生气，伤心。你们都以为我不关心吗？我最在乎的就是我周围的人了。

最近我都好庆幸我有个好朋友，有几个好同事。如果不是你们，我早就崩溃了。婷婷，你人真的很好，谢谢你的安慰。我真的真的好感动。我一直烦你，打扰你，找你，你都没说我。你真好。好爱你喔，我的好朋友，好婷婷妹妹。不知道我会不会回australia,但我会永远记得你这个好友。你是我最棒的朋友了。希望你和elna会很enjoy韩国。

elna,谢谢你的关心。assca,谢谢你那天陪我一起哭，安慰我。xin jie,u oso..thanks for yr care and concern.. Pei lin,我也很高兴有你这个朋友。谢谢你们大家。爱你们大家。

HAPI CNY....

1st of all...HAPI CNY to all folks....lol...

wah...reli suay lor....i fell ill on eve...fever,sore throat,flu,cough n bodyache..=(
pop in lotsa medicine..finally,felt better today...bt cud nt slp...cos too sick...last 2 days,...sick like kuku...

today went ah ma hse bai nian...wa...ang bao received far more than i expected...n itz been a looong time since i last saw hannah,my bb cousin...oh man...shes soooo smart n cute....n shes nt afraid of us...the last time i saw her is like when shes 5 mths old..nxt time post her photos here...lol...

my dogs fight again...jz...cos my mum provoked kiki la...then kiki kp making lotsa noises,then aft tt the 'ren wu ke ren' boxer jz attack boxer...n my dad injured...hmm...bren...so hw??mon whr u wana go??haha..do get bk to me sooon....thankie...

bad feeling...

ytd how eng,jia ying n assca went back malaysia...wah...i hv the sad sad feeling lo...u noe hw it feels???itz jz like me leaving aussie...then today is ting's turn to go bk...so sad...cant c them for abt a wk lor..sad sad...no1 for me to disturb le..or shld i sae...no1 to disturb me...lol...last yr..when i returned,i hv 1 bestie to she bu de...now...i hv another 1 le..of course...the rest of my frens...i oso got and will she bu de la..needless to sae rite...hahaha...

anw...my flight cfm le...march 4th...=(..AHHH....how??how???i dun wana go bk lei...haix....bt my uni alr asked me to pay sch fee,enrolled me le...n oso asked me to collect my 2008 student card...too bad im nt thr....hahaha..wonder hw to guo my 9mths thr....haix...sum1...come sydney hol lei....or go gold coast..cos i wana go as well...lol..hmm...mabel mama sae she will come visit me during my sem brk in june...lol...few more days shes gg brisbane le,yet i cant send her...sori...bt cya soon ok??heh..miss ya....

nw i alr started to miss tingting and the rest le...=( haha

off day....

hmm...sian days for me...off day...nth to do...came hm...rot ard...eat a lot...play with my 2 dogs...watch tv...rot sum more...then nw...ready to slp...y hv my life become so meaningless?? cant mit bren bren liao...came bk for sooo long,onli met her once at the airport,went out once,came look for me makan once(abt 1hr) then 11 feb last time...then i will be gg bk aussie le...reli cant tahan the lonely life thr lor...wat to do??!!sianz..



heard tt the bus system here gona change like sydney kind soon..hahaha...hmm..my sem for sem2 wud end on 22 nov...which means i MAY return anytime earlier than 22 Nov la...yeah!!!i can c all my frens by then...hapi hapi....look 4ward lo...

hmm..i planned to live alone aft my contract ends on 21st july...wana go unilodge...hahaha...tho ex..since they sae they hv $$...then nvm la...dn care...today my parents psycho me go aussie lor..i came bk dn wana tok abt it,yet they kept blabbering..sianz...wat to do??haix....i can onli mit bren 1 more time...can c ting ting n elna for no more than 8 times...hahaha...n the rest for less than a mth...sadz...=(

SAD SAD SAD and SAD...

another day of wk...but itz a SAD SAD SAD day...got scolded like SHIT by HER!reli reli hate her...i duno wat i hv done in the past to deserve sucha present life...but im reli touched by my colleagues...they r all good ppl...all my angels...my good good frens...when im sad,they consoled me..other than bren bren,no1 eva been so good to me...reli thx assca,jia ying n ting ting...love u all loads..HAHAHA..im oways tryin to cover my sadness,trouble with laughter..bt today i reli cant ctrl..i dn wan my frens to worry for me..so no matter hw sad im,hw depress im,i wud TRY cover it la..bt apparently,i cudn't...duno wat to do lor...

emotionally...i reli dn wana leave...financially,$$ is a big issue wor...BUT im forced to go back aussie...cos of her FACE...haix..why on earth i hv such parents...ppl at work dn understand me...i do hv hidden truth abt my fam..bt so wat...such tings isnt very gd to share in here ba...hmm...

i hafta appear happy in front of my colleagues...i dn wan them to wori for me...bt itz so hard to hide...im 1 hu cant reli hide my expressions de...hw?i dn wana b thr alone...so lonely..no1 understands hw i feel...been cryin everyday...tears kp welling my eyes each time i tot of it...cant bear to leave...n worse of all when i tot of wat SHE tell me..im alr 22...why i still dn hv the courage to oppose her???why???i hate myself...hurt myself cos i hated myself...at times i do hv suicidal tots..

since abt 3 yrs old..u noe...every single tings done on me...i rem clearly...ppl may find it ridiculous bt true...i hurt myself once n again cos i hated myself...she reli made me hate myself more..she MOULD me into sum1 w depressions...to sum1 hu eva took depression medicine b4...to sum1 with NO HAPI childhood...no HAPI days..i reli envy ppl w doting parents..sum tho w/o doting parents,hv doting siblings..tts y i substitute my frens as my fam members..sum mk use of me etc..i dn mind..cos i jz wish for a happier life...

i miss HIM...but...haix.....i reli wan to c THEM,n HIM...i muz revert back to the hapi me again...i hv 2 days to settle myself in PP,then sat when i returned,i muz b a hapi hapi ger again..JUNIE..u can do it de...u noe...actualli aft i came bk,then i realised tt i treasure every single fren i hv..in the past,i hv bren,xuan,von,boo etc...nw...i hv few more,like ting ting,peilin etc..they may nt treat me as their besties,bt i jz wana let them noe tt i treat them as my besties...n i wun fail to treat every besties i hv wholeheartedly..my besties=my fam..i LOVE u all..i wun mind if u mk use of me etc..i reli dn wana leave...reli dn wana leave..HOW??=( crying bitterly...

tired...

yoz...itz been quite sum time i din update le rite...hahaha...aft wk reli tired to do anyting lo..i like sum of my colleagues at wkplc...fun fun fun...lol..tink i spent most of time with colleagues more than my own close frens..hahaha..met up with shan shan as well lo...hahaha..i love shopping..BUT onli when i hv enuf $$..hahaha...nw tt pay is here,i find no kaki lo...sad wor.... =(

Hapi bday xuanie!!hehe..enjoyed yr bday ma??hope so wor...mit up at my wkplc 1 day la...go eat tog..hahahhaa....same with dardar,booboo...hahaha...the other time met up with hannah...shes reli reli cute wor..heh..nxt time post her photo aft i hv got sum...so fast lo...few mths lata she turning 2...hahaha....my darling cousin...tho nv c her much..wahaha

hmm..sadded...sth wrong with connection...cant post photos...=(...nxt time ba...tata

life in singapore....

phew!!im back home...hahaha...so long din update blog le lo...lol...i noe tt....eva since i came back,lazy lo...plus nw work..worse....anw..me working at wintertime at suntec nw...free drop by visit visit me lo...i got soooo many stuff to tok about....mayb shall juz summarise...heh

ok...abt mitting up with frens....met up with xuan n ping once...bren oso once....boo past by wintertime tt day...lol...then she came in c me...so touched...heh...when mitting??fri can ma?lol...

worked in wintertime...so hapi...gif good svr...hapi customers...hapi me...hapi colleagues...hmm...reli bz lo...hahaha...i like the plc thr...cos the ppl thr la...of course not all la...first wud b peilin...hahaha...worked in mb with her b4...easily tickled girll...so cute...WAHAHA..then new colleagues bixuan,naza,vincent,ascca,jiangsheng(derek)..then eileen n henry n elna..knew them b4 le la..hahaha...then the ding ding da min de SIMON..wahaha..funi guy...no wonder every1 like him la..lol..

n lastly,wan teng..shes the ger i wana tok more abt...cos shes reli diff fr wat i tot she is..at 1st when i was working at mb,i knew her la..very stranger la..nth to tok...then hu noe,nw me wk at WT,she same as me wor..transfer thr la..hahaha...then we almost work tog everyday lo...our off days oso very similar..1 mth wun c her for 3-4 days onli lo..ok..cut tings short..i find her reli cute la..hmm...quite like her lo...BTH her de lo..disturb me..hahaha...bt had much much fun working with her la...last time i tot she fierce fierce..then she look older than me...bt in fact,shes onli 20..lol..another lil sis of mine..WAHAHA..nt bad ger la..days w/o her no fun..cos nobody to joke joke tok tok to me...hahaha...got chance post her photo...lol..

recently bought 1 mp3....reli love the mp3 loads lo..hahaha...then watched vcd shows during off days...hahaha...if nt helped pack up my stuff la...hmm...i tot of renting a rm wor...cos here no plc to slp le...duno hu wana rent to me??hahaha..go back tamp ma??hmm...*ponders*wahahaha...

time reli changed stuff..many many stuff...dn wish to tok much here...duno hw man..hais...c 1st ba...end of update....update sum time lata ba..heh..gg to slp n prepare for tmr battle le...tata...

i miss the old times....

woah..i cant believe it...thru facebook,not onli i managed to find sum of my pri sch frens,i even found my pri sch best fren..oh dear...i miss her loads...u noe..since P1,we were very good fren...my mum likes her a lot(other than natalie)...i wud stay over at her plc,we skate,swim,eat etc etc tog...n then,i was reli close w her sis as well...sonia(if i din spell wrongly)hahaa...GABY....!!ahh..im so so so surprised...n nw u r in NZ..woohoo~~we r reli near each other...i lose yr phone number tts y hard to contact ya..IF onli IJ toa payoh accepted me,we would b in the same sch,same class...awwww....sobx...

and to my surprise...she got a son...turning 3 tis coming feb...oooo....tings reli changed soooo much...hahaha...her son is reli cute n adorable..n she changed so much...i cud nt even recognise her...shes gg bk sing soon..yep yep yep!!reli excited n hapi..hoho...then i saw olivia,one of my pri sch clicks too..hahaha..seriously,we shall mit up as a grp wor..im getting reli reli excited...hahaha...shu fang...every1...woohoo~~hahaha...wow...cud nv finished talking...

aft my exams r over...wat i did was spend spend SPEND...bo $$ alr la...sadded..hahaha...went out everyday...buy stuff...jz paddys...n i spent abt 80 bucks...n last nite chiong a jap drama,lair game...woohoo~~itz a reli nice show..haha..me n weiie lik er.....dn nit to slp wor..hahaha...today went to a pub for breakfast...then went glebe mkt...reli nice stuff...followed by mkt city n lastly, we went to circular quay..the mkt thr....VERY VERY nice...all the artie stuff...all the bags,pendants etc...very nice...wow...if onli i hv $$$...hahaha...we went to 'pancakes on the rock' for dinnner...wah...we shld jz eat pancakes thr..reli nice..BUT NOT THE STEAK...kena cheated...bcame a laughing stock for weiie,fi fi,n her 2 bros...argh!!!@#$%^&...hahaha...my mouth actually cramped..diao...took afew pics...bt shall update sum other days...lazy...hehehe...yeah..ok..shall go watch drama liao..tata

exams r over...woohoo~~

hmm..i duno was it me tinking too much or wat..i jz find tings reli change le..reli change le..i hv no idea wat is gg on..felt so far away fr a close fren..duno hw to describe tho..n the worse ting is...i duno is i change or u change...i cant figure it out...totally lost n confused...watz happening nw???hmm...all along i tot long distance frenship is fine(nt r/s ma)haha..like norm kinda stuff...bt tink it all changed...many ppl..many tings...i reli duno tis sem i go bk is the rite ting...im scare i will feel weird n left out here...at 1st i anticipated so many stuff...w so many ppl...bt nw i reli feel tt i shld nt hv anticipated much..i duno wat to sae...haix...suan le...forget abt it...prob itz me being bad mood ba...wateva..~~

anw..im hapi...cos i hv finished my last paper today...woohoo~~it was so interesting...i was the 1st to leave..then i hv no choice bt to walk all the way to the front...then so paisey...every1 is lookin at me lo..sum even w their mouth open...reli tt kua zhang lo...i was tinking..they xian mu me...cos im the 1st to... ....... ......... FREEDOM~~wahaha..their expressions...reli cute...bt mk me reli paisey...

sayin abt exam...for today's paper...thx goodness i studied hard for HIV lo..1 of my qn abt tt lo...the ones i din study v hard all landed in MCQ..like cancer,pharmacology qns.,myocardiac infarction n ischaemia...hahaha...n all the STD,stap,strep etc microbes..i din study reli hard for tt..heng ar...hahaha...hapi...lol...im contented with my 40% components for all subj...n reli hapi for the 60% component cos im confident tt most paper i wud score ok...TINK i shld b able to get credit for all ba...IF my cohort nt every1 score well la..cos they gt scaling ma...if scaling then dangerous..WAHAHA..

i realised tt fr their 1st grade to 6th grade n high sch....they hv alr learnt a lot of wat i started learning in poly lo..sadded...hahaha...

hmm...hw shld i conclude...my papers were quite ez...esp the short ans qns...the MCQ r the harder ones...lol...yep...i din type wrongly....MCQ...the stress lvl nt tt high wor...so unlike singapore..wahaha...i planned to go afew plc..bt duno lei...haix..duno la...hmm...recently gt bullied again..sian...duno wat to do...haix...i miss u all..hahaha...then again...i anticipate in gg out w von n boo..wahaha..so hapi...like my 1st few yue hui...lol...

ok la...shall end here...go play my ds le...woohoo~~~n watch dvds....liar game...all the jap drama...chinese drama...yeah!!!wahahaha...

changes.....

hmm...i realised tings changed...even a frenship...hmm..bt it jz change...so itz nt jz bgr..frenship do change too...for long distance frenship...hahaha..hmm..ok...i hv bought for myself a DS lite today...was considering to get psp or ds..cos i like psp a lot too..hmm...psp more ex...dn tink i can afford la..so i got the ds bundle..the console,tog w a ratatouille game,n a 4in 1 pack for A$219...duno worth anot...wanted to ask von...bt too late le...cos i cant wait le..went to buy today..hahaha...planned to buy my sims,mario n sum brainy games..bt ren..certain games can wait till me go bk then buy..cheaper ma..lol...few more days..woohoo~~hehe..

bt end up,today din accomplished much...went shopping n makan..then slack at hm....wana study de..bt fi sudd tell me tt our hse gt maggots..waliu!!heng is nt my week of cleaning then kena..oopz...HAHAHA...hmm..2 more paper to go...then shuang le...can look ard...play ard..etc...lol..hopefully by tmr i can finish studyin..then sun shall go gloria jeans to dl shows n revise..lazy go sch la..haha..sure noisy..

i sumhw got the feeling when i go hm,i wun feel comfy..envir,everyting..wud b different...sure like cant fit in..wahahaha..yeah..tings change..i hafta accept tt fact...i duno...wana sae sth de..bt 4gt le...wahaha..

anw...sydney uni so proud tt in the world ranking,the rank went up fr 38th to 31st..hahaha...so kuku...tis year...woohoo~~sumtime it jz sound so good tt u r studyin at a prestigious uni...world ranking so high sum more...shuang~~haha..im nt tryin to show off here k..dn wu hui...hahaha...

mabel mama gg to brisbane nxt sem..late jan...awww...bt i planned to go during my winter hol..go c her is the reason..(bt the main one is hol..heh heh heh)...hmm..oso hv the plan to go gold coast w booboo n her boy??hahaha..duno..shall plan when i returned..okla...nth much to sae for nw..go mope mope...wahahha...tata

sianz...

HAHA~~hmm..whr shld i start???guess why im here??cos i cud not study...im left with a day now,n here im,blogging n wasting my time away...when im home,nth works for me..i cud nt concentrate...sianz...hafta piah tmr man...hmm...today paper was alright i supposed...for a scale of 80 marks,i expect to score at least a 60...the MCQ is tricky..i kena tricked a few times...heng i checked..lol...anw..managed to find carriageworks,i tailed a classmate of mine..hoho..oopz...

hmm...jz 1 paper down,n i hv the feeling tt my exams r over...shitz man!!haha...bt i planned to slp nw,SLEEP NW(singapore time:740pm)and wake up early tmr,go me hse dnstair enjoy a sumptuous breakie b4 i start wk in the lib.i specially love gg burkit-ford lib instead of medical or fisher lib..itz so quiet,nice..hahaha..near to my coffee area too!!hahaha..hopefully i cud finished by tmr nite,then wed morn shall test myself,b4 gg for exams...my paper is at 3pm,tts y i cud afford to do tt..hahaha...

anw..today i felt so pc..i was sitting rite at the front(apparently,im the last student) and the invigilators walked around loudly...bt when they tok to u,they whisper..u cant even hear wat they saying..humph!!hahaha..anw..recently it rained everyday...n guess wat...the weather is sooo cold...18degrees..piang~~i shiver like kuku nw...we r nv satisfied,,,hmm..when i hv temp gg up to 28-30 degrees,i wud wish for lower temp....nw tt i hv lower temp,i wana it bk up to 20+++ degree...human like me are such greedy n nv-satisfying ppl...hahaha...tts whr lies 1 of my imperfection...my horoscope saes i muz b perfect..bt we r nv perfect except God,my saviour,my best friend,my confidant,sum1 hu is 4eva thr for me..heex...

well well...shall stop toking so much le...i hafta go mit my zhou gong liao...hes waiting for a chess kaki..hoho..tata....

aussie comercial

here is another kuku commercial abt sony handycam..LOL..

stress ar~~

oooo....im getting really breathless as days go by...everytime during exams i felt tt way,ppl tell me itz stress..bt consciously,i dn feel a ting...tt breathless feeling reli xin ku..v tight chest...hmm...anw..recently im high on caffeine...i drank many cups of coffee daily...tink my BBB too good...dn allow stuff to get in,bt i jz wan it to b permeable to my caffeine..to kp me awake...haiyo...hw man???counting dn...1 more day to prepare for micro exam...dread tt day to come man...hahaha...

i tink im putting too much pressure on myself...i force myself to study all 4 units tis week,n i din mk it..it makes me reli unhapi...nw im forcin myself to rem every single word in the lec notes on micro...of course n understand...bt apparently,other than immune system,the rest is memorise..haa...at 1st reli angry w myself...feelin sleepy,cant breathe well,cant get into my head the stuff..so distracted...kp telling myself tt if i dn score,im not gona reward myself aft the exams...then i bcome better at rememberin stuff,bt more breathless..hahaha...bt tts the onli way to mk myself rem..hahaha..

reli wana score well...hw man??if i cant score,i wud be disappointed w myself,my parents will scold me badly as well..hw??sobx..wana tok to sum1...bt no1 i cud tok to...im jz so stress ar...haix..bt i miss the times when bren came over to my hse to study tog..hw fun n nice..hahaha..reminds me of many stuff as well...studied in sch lib..etc etc..hahaha..anw...i kp seein tis korean classmate of mine everyday..wahahaha..den we like...hey..u again...hahaha..etc..so kuku...her rxn reli big lo...hahaha...

waiting anxiously for gd tings to happen...wonder when??hahaa...anw...i wana either get ds lite or psp...any suggestion which is better???WAHAHAHA..ok...gona go slp le..tmr gg sch lib piah all the way..guess tmr i hafta drink at least 3-4 large cups of coffee..bt reli scare i will shake..caffeine ma..hmm..hw man??hahaha..nah..nth much le..tata...

how time flies~~

HAHA...changed song again...LOL...oh man oh man!!im undergoing a emotionally unstable period...exams time....itz so freaky...sumhw im confident tt i hv studied liao,bt then again,im scare...looking at my 40% coursework grade,im getting more stress each day..kp getting back more n more results fr everyting,prac reports,quizzes,prac exam,assessment etc..i hv good n unexpected results for most,bt the overall din add up to my expectations...onli 1 module i got 32% out of 40%, another module i gt 27% out of 40%..yuck!!i aim for 30 n above...ohno!!im so stress up nw..went to sch to study everyday,bt seems to me tt im lacking each day...perhaps i pushed too hard on myself...nxt wk i hv 2 paper,bt im forcing myself to study all 4 modules...im reli reli freaking out...my results...itz so haix...i wan more fr myself...felt so SLOW now..like im so laggin behind my classmates...i noe im not..bt i jz got tt feeling...tink is to demoralise myself more..im always lidat...hahaha..SIAO~~

recently go to sch,kp meeting my korean sch n classmates,n saw ryo...hahaha...so kuku..we talked..no matter hu i met with,bt after that,i cudn't study anymore...lol...sadded...anw..my 10days b4 i go hm,im gona go many places...lol...hv fun!!!hmm..i jz wana go bk nw...tis moment..bt when the moment i hv the tot tt im stayin at my OWN hm,slpin at the living rm,it mks me so SIAN!SIAN!!SIAN!!!haix..dn feel like gg bk nw...bt i reli miss my frens...hahaha...reli duno wat to do man!!dear dear!!hahaha

another reason i dn wana go bk is cos i gona miss all the good show...HOUSE...SO U TINK U CAN DANCE (aussie),SIMPSON,FUTURAMA,ARE U SMARTER THAN A 5TH GRADER,n all the FRI, SAT n SUN MOVIES..sianz~~hahaha..bt then again,u cant hv the best of both world...hafta sacrifice 1..HAHA..okla...i jz dn wana study tts y im here happily bloggin away..lol..gona go mug nw...(daydream i supposed)WAHAHA..BORING~~

Carleton Big Advert fr aussie...lol

okok...every1..tis is a kuku advert in aussie channel 7...hahaha...u all shld watch tis n luk at the lyrics...itz crap..LOL...i 4gt abt tis until i encounter it again..yeah..gt another source of stuff to post fr nw on...lol.... yipppeeee!!!