bestie

im reli reli hapi cos ting started talkin to me le....fr bestie/jiemei to almost like foe,then nw to being a colleague....hahaha....at least beta than nth...i wana learn to cherish n nt expect...in tis way,she wud b happier,n i wud b happier...hahaha...fr her,i reflected a lot...i felt being my fren is a stressful ting...cos of my way of treatin my frens i guess...ppl who reli noe me,understands me,will noe hw much,reli hw much i cherish frens...even if i reli hv my mr right,i wud still put my besties 1st plc...in the past was lidat,the present wud still be,n needless to sae,the future...probably i was alone since young,probably i hv always wish for siblings...ppl who r my besties wud normally be treated as my sister...i hv always hp for older sis,to dotes on me...bt i dn,so the other way is to hv younger sis,for me to dotes on...LOL...cos i dotes on u,i wana gif/share all gd stuffs w ya....i wud treat u all gd food,i wud super teng u all,i wud gt reason no reason get prezzies...n durin bday etc,i wud get tings u wan/need...

i gt a bestie many stuffs b4,bt all nt to her likings..cos i duno wat she likes...onli noe wat she needs..bt she still uses it la...sum is out of no choice,cos nth is nice...so jz get it to fulfill wat she needs...$$ on my besties is sure no probx de...

the reason y i wrote tis post is jz to tell u all,is nt cos i like/love them (the wrong way) then treat them till lidat....is jz me!!tts hw i treat my besties...so plz dn oways tink i in love w them or wat...i love them,bt as my sisters,n nt my lover.....pls pls dn tink so much...to those ppl who suspect me..i noe u wud read my blog....so.....thanks...(referrin to sum ppl)

lotsa loves for u....

went vivo today....met up with cecelia...cos wana go thr get bday prezzie...bt hor...walao...out of stock...diaoz...sadded la...hafta wait longer...bt shld nt have stayed out so long la...cos my body started to hurt again...my hand,leg,esp my back n head..haix.....reached hm onli i nt well again....tmr hw to wk??Sum more sat lei....sadded....hahaha..hp tmr will b fine....

today i wana gif lotsa lotsa loves....WAHAHAHA....hmmm.....i love dardar(bren).....i love tata honey(anita)...i love nana(elna)....i love vonvon(yvonne)...i love booboo(ruobin)....i love ping(feng ping)....i love xuanie(rong xuan)....i love mama(mabel)....i love dearie(khadijah).....hahaha....i love many many many ppl....do u all love me????HEEX.....

anw...i watched house bunny today...so nice show....itz a funi show...very funi show....kuku show...bimbo show...LOL....then i wana watch the guard post..honey...wana go watch tog ma???or u watchin w ya fren??hehehehe....

哈啤！！

今天我的honey来找我吃饭。等她到我快饿死了。哈哈哈。幸好我肥肉多少都有些帮助。我们去sakae吃buffet咯。哈哈。yumyum。但她还是一样，什么都‘给她honey=我吃’哈哈哈。可怜的我就吃到超饱。哈哈。但我鼓起勇气告诉她我不见了她的情书。哈哈哈。她要再给我写一个。我又很开心了。起初好不开心咯。我不见了那张，是她说她把所有要说的话，加上她感情加点emo进去写的。当然会伤心啦。=( 幸好她niam两句后就说要写给我。谢谢你honey。爱死你了。muack muack muack！！！哈哈哈哈。honey真好！跟我dardar一样好。哈哈。期待那封信哦！哈哈。my honey=anita

我还不知道要买哪一个。可爱的？还是style点的？你喜欢哪个啊？哈哈哈。我知道dardar ok with pink 的吧！slimy pink。dar，对不起。不是故意不陪你过生日的，是因为eddie有事。不要不高兴好吗？我会找一天弥补你的！

我miss nana lei。。哈哈。。nanananananananananananananana.....banana.....hahahhaa... nananananana...nananananana...不要太miss我，你一定很期待我回去的。哈哈哈哈。我好无聊lei。明天我跟kathy做。11-12一个人，8pm onwards又是我一个。。哈哈。希望会忙，不然闷死了。哈哈。我会成为化石。哈哈哈哈。。

bday...

tt day enjoyed gg out with dardar on my bday....hmmm...i gona wait aft celebrating hers den i post tog ba...lol....cos wana put photos n stuff......dar....u qi dai yr PINK slimy stuff ma??WAHAHAHAHAHAHA...i noe u do....i noe u do!!!WAHAHAHAHA....be sure to treasure it aft u hv received it!!!LOL...tink wud b yr best prezzie eva...cos itz pink...itz slimy.....thick.....sumting u oways been craving for....dn at one time use all ar....WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....bleah dar!!nani nani pupu...u cant beat my pipi....*shake pipi*WAHAHAHA.....jialak...our inside craps i post online le....lol...every1 noe hw kuku n childish im le...hahaha..bt for dar....itz ok!!!LOL...

many many days updates all tog...lol

long post today..cos i gona summarised everyting in a post....lol...

today marks the 2nd mth of my jiemei n me nt talkin le....in this case of draggin n draggin,i hv the feelin tt we wun eva b frens again...i actually purposely call to talk to her on my off day...n even wanted to buy food for her..bt...she chose nt to talk to me,n she rejected my offer thru msg la...so...nana..call her oso lidat...sumtime i tink ya...she does dotes on me a lot,tk 4 examples these 2 mths...can feel tt la...probably she gan ga ba..probably she shy...i duno...bt i feel so sian doin all this n she givin no rxn at all..if she reacted,at least i felt sth..bt no wor..i may sae i dn bother bt actualli i still does..i jz sumhw wana stop le,bt at the same time,my heart felt so reluctant to do so..

tt time when she chatted w me in msn,i was reli hapi la..reli over the moon...BUT...itz onli for 1 day..actualli i was reli tired de,wana go slp,bt i chose to stay online...LOL...bt nw i dn wana go online as often le..even if i do,i wud appear offline..hahaha...nobody to chat with..all my didi dada kakis nt ard de...lol...duno la...so...any1 lookin for me can jz talk to me la...most prob online de...hahahaha..

anw...talk abt anita...hahaha...29th marks her last day at wintertime...we went singing,bought her a cake...in a way enjoyed ourselves...bt the ting,she nt emo enuf....LOL.....i reli enjoyed workin w her la...very fun...very nice....hahahaha...very funi at times...esp with the vacuum cleaner...n workin w her makes me gain lotsa weight la!!!!hahahaha...

bt HONEY!!!I MISS U A LOT..!!!!hahaha...honey no longer wkin le...im so alone le....sumtimes so angry with sum funi pple....sumtime so amused....honey...dn wori!!thrs sum1 who is more kuku with vacuum than u le....u ranked number 2 nw!!WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..bleah!!!

recently alr quite used to workin in pp,with lao da etc..i dn hv the 'drag myself to wk' feelin le...hahaha...hmm...of course i miss suntec...bt sumtimes due to certain circumstances,i jz felt abit ai mai ai mai to go bk thr...hahaha...mayb cos i feel strange thr...duno lei...hahaha...anw...tell u all a joke...our dear lao da ar...hahaha...told me gt 1 customer wana buy 3LY cotton for aircon use...end up let him persuade until customer buy 100% wool LJ lor...kua zhang anot?wahaha.. then we,as his ka kia,all oso 不择手段..die die push cashmere stuff...LJ,sweater,coats,scarf... everyting...can push one we push...wahahhaa..even if the plc they r gg de nt tt cold...wahahaha...we very mean rite??hahaha...we all managed to sell quite a number of men cashmere LJ lo..to me la..i felt like quite afew le...hahaha...

HONEY!!!when den we can go eat our buffets???Watch our movies???etc etc??hahaha...bt hapi to c honey today for a short short while..LOL...anw honey...kathy sae our shop upstair duno whr gt sell yr 吉祥物lei...the pretty wawa u hv...lol....i told her i wana buy 1 then put in shop...to disturb eddie!!WAHAHAHAHA...mayb bring luck lei...hahaha...nola...jz sae sae nia...LOL...

i wana watch connected.....i wana watch chaser....i wana watch quarantine....i wana watch many other shows....the person i oways hv in mind to watch with me de no longer will b my movie kaki le...at 1st i tot of tryin to ask her de...bt fr tt day tues her rxn,i can tell..nope....!!hahaha..so any1 kind n good enuf to pei me watch??dn wana watch alone la..so kelian...hahaha...u all ar...so bz de..work de work...study de study....pa tuo de pa tuo...hahaha..left ke lian me alone...hahaha...

i miss u all la...i miss booboo la...when we gg out ar??tt time u asked me le den u sudd offline...humph!!haha...dar...qi dai gg out w u!!!von....when gg out sia??6th i cant...hahaha... ping,xuanie....hw u all???all bu jian lidat...haha..zhenbei lei??hahaha..then oso my baobei..she oso very bz...wk n wk..c..being a nurse is no ez business..lol..hmm...wa...nw i so xing fu...i gt honey,gt dardar,gt baobei,gt dear,gt mummy...LOL...last time gt dar-lingz de..bt nw no more le..n tink we no longer will be....=( am i sayin to much??hmm...

vacuum..hahaha

i purposely came to post a short post...noe on wat???on SOMEONE hu dont noe hw to use a vacuum cleaner...im nt sayin hu la....WAAHAHAHHA..bleah!!ask me whr is the power plug etcetc lei....aiyo..mk me laugh n laugh..........hahahahahahha.....

hapi me...

im so so so so hapi la....hahaha...cos tingting left me a frenster comment...tho is nt she talk de la....still......im hapi....im over the moon...so kua zhang rite....haha...i miss talking to her..lol

ok...out of 23 days in pp,i hv alr past 11 days le..WAHAHAHA...im left with 12 days...HOPEFULLY.....!!!hahaha...pp nt dn like,is probably i cant adapt very easily to the environment ba...plus so boring thr...no customers....hahaha...actualli if im given a chance,i wun wana go thr lor...hahaha...

hpthrs a day when u will talk to me again!!hahaha

sianz...

im sick...tired...n bored!!hahaha....i miss suntec,until c doc oso muz go suntec...WAHAHAHA..of course no la...Naza sae the doc thr cheap,unlike my hse tt clinic,tt cost me $60...hahaha...in the end,i spent $32 wor...still ex ba...bt better than here de...lol...

i miss tingting....can we b frens again??can we talk again??can i go back suntec wk??

anyway,im gg dn to suntec on my coming off day...b4 tt,i hafta go pp thr buy mooncake for they all to eat...hahaha...tingting i guess she wud eat the durian de ba....hahaha...nana oso wanted the durian one...bt i hafta wake up early to buy lo..cos they very early sold out le...bt then hor..i hafta come bk kallang eat my red egg mee sua..cos....itz my CHINESE bday!!!yay!!!HAHAHA...diao...hahaha....

bday wishes...

u noe...ytd i was really happy...cos ting talked to me....although is reluctantly...she still chose to talk....im so happy lor....im reli very contented le....hahaha....i was so overjoyed tt i dn feel down ytd.....thr is 0.01% of improvement btn me n ting meimei...LOL...im so happy....hahaha...then she ate the ting i bought....bt earlier when i saw her expression,she was starin at cecelia,n talkin to me reluctantly...bt itz ok....n at least when i talked to her,she still gt luk at me,nt like last few weeks lidat le...haha..im reli happy...i dn mind dying jz to get her friendship back...probably im crazy,probably i too kua zhang,bt tts my character ba...sth tt i cant reli change much...esp to my besties...probably cos im still unattached ba...bt i tink la,even if im attached le,i wud still zhong shi frens as much...esp my besties....

u noe...cos thr is tt lil improvement,im worried tt this mth in pp,our frenship wud then go bk to the same zibi situation again..i very scare wor...is thr sum way for me to maintain the 0.01% improvement??i reli dn wish to go bk..

can bday wish be more than 1??if can....i wud like to sae....

1) Naza n cecelia wud b frens n talk again...esp tt naza...dn be so stubborn...haha
2)all my besties n frens to be happi....
3)i wud hv enuf $$ to go back sydney study....
4)i wud excel in my studies,career...
5)my personalities n character wud change...esp those that ting pointed out de...
6)my family to be fine n good...
7)nt stay perm workin at pp la...cos i prefer suntec...i wud miss the ppl thr,like lao na,ting etc...

8)to find my Mr Right la...apparently,the fortune teller told me aft my 22nd bday(english version-sept 15),my mr right wud appear...HOPEFULLY lor...hahahhaa

9)to he hao with wang teng...although i noe the possibilities is equivalent to zero.....(am i reli sucha bad person?)

i dn need any bday prezzies....the above 1-7 wud be my gd prezzies le... Number 8 is a best prezzie....i have 1 yr to mk it come true....hopefully the fortune teller is telling the truth...LOL

OF COURSE,my BEST n biggest n happiest bday present for tis yr wud be number 9.... i hope she wud gimme a chance...to talk to me n befriend me again....eh....back to the old days...i reli miss them...sobs....bt i noe.....she wun de...bt dn wori...i will persevere de...i wun give up de...

yupz....tt shld b all....i will definitely miss nana n ting ting de.....=(...sae until like i dyin...wahahhaa...hmm...imagine everyday hafta travel 1 hr to wk,hafta bring umbrella,cant slp more(hafta wake up 1/2 earlier)...more n more like panda le....sianz....hahaha...okla...go slp le...tmr is another day...inc nxt mth,i cant/nv talked to ting for abt 2mths...sobs...bt dn wori ting...i wun force u de...u tk care k...hugz...

updates........

hmm..today went pc show...then i saw the onda mp5...wa...hmm...very tempting to get it,bt dn luk reliable tho it has jay zhou signature bla bla....selling at $240...then i saw tv phone....very popular lor...diu....selling at $240 as well..supposed to find disc,bt i saw none...probably i cud nt c...i hv been rounding thr so many times wor....+ oso to find my fren la..wahaha....

then i went aigo...saw tt mp5....i hv decided to buy tt le.....cfm + chop!!hahaha...buay tahan le...tts the ting when pay comes...u spend a lot....if tts the case,i hafta sell my mp4 nw...hu can i sell to??rocky???LOL..at least can save up abit...hahaha...or shld i sa jiao with my dad,c if he willin to donate sum $ for me to invest...i tink he will kill me!!haha...cos he knew i jz bought the mp4 nt long ago...hw???hahaha...hmm....4gt to ask hw much lor...stupid me..scully $400 i die..tink i will hafta sell my digi cam...WAHAHA..hmm...met up with zhenbei n her mum...hahaha...her mum very teng me one..haha..until nw still rem me...kp askin zhen bei hw am i etc...so swt hor...hahaha

ok...tmr will be my 1st day at parkway...countdown....29days more....shall update briefly every nw n then...lol...why every1 tink i wun eva go bk to suntec le??reli ar??i scare wor..hopefully nt... =( hahahaha..

stories.......

那天去了parkway，就认识了anita..我们聊了好多好多..发现我们的喜好是一样的.真是有趣.哈哈..她那天还特地打去suntec找我.刚才还msg我笑我明天又去pp.真坏.哈哈.她以为我小过她咯.哈哈.没想到,我看起来那么年轻.哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈.蛮合得来.哈哈

我好想念婷婷..虽然好象每天都看到她,但就好象没和她做工.好想念以前的日子...我为什么那么烂的呢?哎呀!但我要证明给你看我对你这个妹妹用的真心是不需要任何回报的,就算你不想接受我帮忙,不感动我对你做的,我被伤到也不要紧,我会为我们友谊坚持到底的!婷永远都会是我好友,好姐妹!!=)hugz n loves..我会永远疼你的！can sum1 tell me how to change???哈哈 ...

对了.我看了12lotus和4bia 了.12lotus不好看,听anita说老大也说不好看.哈哈.但4bia我和我朋友都觉得好看,又好笑,又有点恐怖.哈哈.anita比我前一天去看嘛.然后隔天就打给我,告诉我好看.哈哈.她说她在看那部电影时,一直想到我.哈哈.真是的!!哈哈.真可爱..改次有什么恐怖片等就能一起去看了..新的电影kaki..LOL...

上个星期,von和我原本要去newton吃宵夜的,没想到他们关咯.浪费油,时间等.哈哈哈..还关三四天呢..因为鬼节要清洗..什么理由嘛..到最后,我们去了old kallang airport吃.叫了那么多,尤其是那个超大螃蟹.逼我吃整整半只,害得我晚上睡不着,太饱了.哈哈哈.

可怜的我,在吃我那半只螃蟹...饱死了...哈哈哈...


我们吃的那只大螃蟹....大过我的手咯...哈哈哈...想它还有脚...更大只了..哈哈..

处女ｖｓ摩羯

处女座ｖｓ摩羯座（ｍｅ　ｎ　ｔｉｎｇ）

ｉｔｚ　ｒａｔｈｅｒ　ｔｒｕｅ．．ｔｔｓ　ｙ　ｉｗａｎａ　ｐｏｓｔ　ｈｅｒｅ．．ｌｏｌ．．．

在处女座和摩羯座之间的第一种牢固的关系是他们都想做高尚的人的需要。他们避免自己成为笑柄，受人尊敬的办法是做到品行端正，因此他们说话做事尽可能的符合规范。这两个人之间第二种有力的关系是对使用钱的态度，审慎节约的花，绝对不会浪费或粗心的乱丢。他们之间另一种有力的关系是对待义务和责任的方式。如没有责任，他们会迷失自己，失去目标。应该给他们郑重的信任，需履行的义务，需完成的责任。他们共同拥有的另一东西是良好的同感。他们有聪明的头脑。处女座总知道什么是正确的。摩羯座则喜欢沉默，从不发表意见或认同什么，除非他们用较长的时间仔细的思考——反之，水星，处女座的支配者，使得他们相当快的说出自己的意见。摩羯座其实热情，他们是具有清醒的头脑，敏锐的领悟力，判断灵敏有力的男女。他们分析每种感觉，然后说他们根本不是那样（那是因为他们分析你对他们的分析结果）。

摩羯座在处女座的态度上发现不了错误，处女座把时间和注意力放在解决问题上。对摩羯座人来说，这实在太谨慎了。摩羯座表现一种奇特的独立。当障碍出现，摩羯座只是跨过它，稳定攀越他们目标的顶峰。这就是为什么土星支配的人们有时表现的冷漠和不热情的原因——他们对压力和紧张缺乏外在的反应，他们认为情感的表现没有必要。许多日宫不了解这样一种态度，错误的理解他，然而处女座本能的知道，在泰然自若的铁面下，摩羯座真是心碎，而摩羯座悲哀的感激处女座的同情。同样，当其他人认为处女座挑剔，大惊小怪和神经质时，摩羯座感觉到处女座心中藏着温和的梦和渴望，需要这样的逃避，即仍在沉默寡言和羞怯的表情下坚决保持克制。摩羯座知道这种感受，因为他们也同样如此。他们要表达这种渴望实在太难了。

处女座宣称喜欢一个人呆着，摩羯座知道这决不是真的，一旦他们知道你是多健谈。很多时候你是多么空虚，你只是从容的掩盖你的孤独以防那些只会嘲笑你的人。是的，摩羯座清楚的知道处女座需要假装很自足，把这当作避免伤害的方式。处女座和摩羯座身上有某种可爱而温和的东西，似乎暗中使他们在一起。有许多次处女座认为摩羯座太固执，拘泥于他（她）的方法，拒绝让步或屈服于心理刺激的兴奋，有许多次摩羯座认为处女座忧虑太多，谈论事情过度。虽然如此，他们两个相似的地方远比不同的多，相容的比不相容的多。同感的5-9宫型使他们更容易联系和原谅彼此的过错。

three frenz...lol....song...

hahaha...i reli like tis song.....frenz.....三人...

i miss ting,my sis...

i hv been tinking a lot tho...i miss ting...she is everyday in front of me,bt she treated me as tho im transparent....i miss the good old times......i miss her being funi with us,inc me...i miss her talkin to me,jokin with me,playing with me etc....i mis her...whr is my sis??like missing...cos she no longer talks to me,no longer bothers abt me,no longer treated me as b4...sumtimes i tink the way i do tings like v si can lan da lidat...bt if i dn,wat else can i do??i reli do wan the frenship back...i wan my meimei bk..can u come bk??=(

sad....tired...sicked!!!

recently in my dictionary,onli these words appear: sick,stress,nervous,tired,sian,pek chek,gona beng kui,zi bi,scare,sad,upset,disappointed n fake....im so sick n tired of all this stuff.....cant tings jz end alright??cant u gimme a easier way to settle??i hv alr tried my very very best....u r always avoiding me...nt allowing me to have my chance....the ting i gona do nw shall reli b the very last one...if thr is still no reciprocal,then.....itz ok....cos by then,thr wud onli b jue wang,shi wang n shang xin... yeah... then tho i reli wan our ship,tho i appreciate it a lor..i wud jz remain stagnant...i guess....hv u eva appreciated the lil tings i hv done,jz like the way i do?? nw even my colleague tinks tt im v shi bai,very disappointed in me le....y m i doin all tis tings???i duno la...haix...

a day in vivo with ting...lol

went out with tingting today....supposed to mit at 12pm,end up become nearly 2pm..so kuku....no schedule of whr to go...hahaha...we went marche for our lunch(her treat),then we went to look for her lappie stuff..ooo....sayin abt tt...my mum helped her student sell a sony vaio lappie ma...then i come to noe tt ting wanted one,so i asked her la..hahaha...negotiated the price with my mum...actually she insisted on reducing by $100 onli..then ting kept askin when to collect her lappie...diao...haha..like scare i will cheat her lidat..haha..so the nxt day aft worked she came over to my place la..stayed over...hahaha...funi nite tho...hahaha...

we bought a laptop case,a mouse n notebook cooler...hope shes happy with it...hahaha...the case n mouse initial price was $99 n $89 respectively...duno y thr is sucha offer at $39 each...wa...hahaha...anw..aft tt we went walking ard then went to catch a movie...you dn mess with zohan...kuku show...went winter time awhile b4 we go hm..short day rite??ahahha...i find it short too!!hahaha...wat a short off day....LOL

then we were jokin abt COWS....ooooo....hahaha...we 2 tis mth so many off days tog,bt nxt mth 1 same off day oso bo...hahahahahhaha...is like i off today,she off tmr..sth lidat...hahahaha...kuku de...lol...okla....overall today still okok...hahahaha

kungfu panda.........happenings to me!!

today....finally i get to watch kungfu panda....LOL....ting volunteered to watch with me...hahaha... tho i guess she dun reli wana watch de ba..hahaha...then i asked how eng along...hahaha...so kuku...aft wk we rushed to GV marina to watch lor....very funi show...kuku show...lamey show...hahahaha...no wonder sooo many ppl praised the show...hahaha...i laughed my heart out...hahaha...today thru-out the day was also a good day...hahaha...fun working...lol...laughing n laughing...same for the past few days...hahaha...=)

since last wed,i hasn't been feeling well...nausea,bone ache,fever...then come thursday onwards...diarrhea the whole day until today...almost a week...everyday lidat...it turned out tt i started to shh shh fr the back......until ytd then my nanny mentioned tt i might be suffering from gastric flu...bt oh well...they treated me...n here im...fine n well again!!lol...my secondary immune system begin workin i guess...LOL...bt im almost dehydrated....reli is 'green face white lips'...hahaha...in chinese idiom...

wah..jialak man...seems to me tt elna n ting noes my personality well..cham le...all my ruo dian they noe le...ohoh...hahahha...well well...nth much le....jz update for fun..wana rest le....

不开心的两个星期。。

最近心情好坏喔！我的室友都想害死我。那样对我喔。我最近一直给人骂。每天都打来。我开始有了恐惧。看到我家打来的，我就好怕好怕咯。怎么这样啊？我好害怕。我不想接的，但又不能喔。我好想找朋友诉苦，但我又找不到。那一天，他从十点骂到三点咯。什么家人!选择相信外人。就最近都要崩溃了。我真的好辛苦咯。还要装没事，还不能大声地哭。我真的没想太多咯。他真的是那样说的。他说我是多余的，应该死掉咯。有时好想有一个人在旁听我说，我那一天一直一直哭，每晚都睡不着，睡不好。我很怕会被骂，那应该是因为我不喜欢争吵吧！每次一被骂，我心里的怕回来了。会令我想起以前的事喔。我就会感觉没安全感，很空虚。但你们都不了解，只会说我想太多。一些安慰的话都没有！我有多害怕你懂吗？我现在真的很累了！为什么有你在我生命里？为什么我都没有家的温暖的？

我好开心以为真的能看到bren了。但她又不能meet我了。最近在我身上发生了很多不开心的事，婷不了解我，以为终于能和bren见面了，这样我有了我好朋友的hugs.心里会比较舒服，没那么害怕了。但她又不能meet了。我没生气啦。只是我期待的那一个hug都没了！我几时才能有个很棒的hug呢？有时不需要说什么，就抱一下我就开心了。因为至少懂有人疼我。我心情也轻松多了。我觉得如果真的有人那么做，我会哭的。因为我忍很久了。只想大哭一下。

我以为能去看kungfu panda的，现在不能了。我还很开心的告诉大家我终于能和我最好的朋友见面了。我多么的期待，因为我要我好友的hug，也要见见面啦。只有她了解我吧！我觉得啦。为了她，我都拒绝和von n ting看咯。现在呢？都不见面了。找我吃个饭也好嘛。

我希望我家人不会又打来骂我，伤我自尊。我相信我比野狗来的好吧！不要再说我连野兽都不如了好吗？到现在，虽然我外表很开心，但其实我还是好不开心的。我很想躲起来，不要和任何人再伤我。我想当一只乌龟，害怕时，能躲在自己的壳里。我好怕以前的事又会发生在我身上。我受不了了。怎么办？救救我好不好？我现在的感觉就是一个人而已。真的感觉到很无助喔。这种怕着过日子的生活我快要受不了了。二十二年了。够了。累了。我真正的开心到底在哪里？真的有人把我当家人吗？有人把我当好友吗？我好怕，好乱喔！

我真的很想抱着我好友痛哭一场，然后就好了。真的！='(

gan dong...genting updatea postpone..

hmm...i wana update gentin stuff lei...but hor...i wana wait for the pics....easier....von..faster send me the pics....shall wait then!!will update de..no worries k von!!hahaa

anw.juz bought a new cam...so tempting...actually wana get T300,but in the end got T70.oso not bad la...me n jia ying got the same one...onli diff is hers pink,mine white...hahahaha...

shall update briefly la...actually,nth much la...hmm...i sick...hmm...boring life....hmmm...wana mit out with boo they all...nv c them for thousands of years liao...ahahahha...wana go hol...the hol ting promised to go...no time to go lo...hmm....ting...u wana go hol???hahahaha...booboo...wana go anot??tt time talked halfway abt gg...hmm...xuanie n ping oso....all half half...hahaha...i miss u all!!

all along,ting dn make me feel like she treated me as her good fren...but recently,thru the lil lil tings she did made me realised tt i was wrong...tho it may b lil stuff,the thoughtfulness is thr..the care is there...so touched...so gan dong lor...

the other time when i juz came bk fr genting,my mouth swell..too dry,cracked as well...then was wondering which lip balm to get(fr my shop la)..asked every1 for opinion..but all gave diff one..hence,i decided to go guardian n hv a look during my break...then when ting went for her break,i went to the ladies,afterwhich i juz popped into guardian n hv a look...i saw this lip balm tt i wanted..i meant the brand..vaseline...quite useful for my lips...went bk to store,saw ting eating in the store..then she asked me to go in awhile,then she gave me the lipbalm i wanted..im like.... .....duno wat to sae lor....i was wonderin y she know wat brand i wanted ma...yuan lai is cos i mentioned tt the lip balm i used in aussie is good,n the brand is tt..then she knew..(i guess so...)haha...anw...gan dong lor...simple tings...but hw many of yr frens will do tt??

when i feel down,she oways wanted me to speak out..dn wan me to kp it in my heart...n when she doesn't noe hw to console me,she oways sae she mei yong etc....reli is 傻傻小妹咯！！哈哈。rem the duckie she bought for me?i felt xing fu to hv sucha good fren lo..but i quite bad la..she bo lui alr...i still wanted her to get a lappie b4 i go bk aussie...hahaha...she oways so kuku n cute de...Thanks ting ting...thanks for the stuff u do..i appreciated it a lot...n will rem them for life de... =)

sista...

HAHAHA...recently bz with stuffs...with wat???of course work la...thru the phone,many would find it difficult to recognise ting n my voice...they oways wu hui de ar...they sae we sound alike...diao rite???hahaha..then now worse...today went daniel yam ar...cos ting wana get a dress ma...for wedding dinner...then we went in thr...aft sum tries,the person sae i so good,pei my elder sis choose dress...then i tot i hear wrongly...then she sae...r we sister??or good frens??hahaha..then we replied...gd frens la...then the sales fella sae..oh..she tot we sista..cos we look alike...eye,nose and the way we smile...very alike...diao...hahahahah..then she sae i look like YOUNGER sis,ting is OLDER sis lor...sooooooo funi...WAHAHAHAHA...till nw i still cant stop laughin at ting lo...wahahhaa...

me n ting ting lo...the most recent pic taken...LOL...jiejie(on yr right) n meimei(on yr left)..

the other time oso...ting wana go bangkok ma...then i showed her a news paper article regarding handling contact lenses ar...then i sae go bangkok dn use tap water to wash the len case la..she sae wun la...cos she will be using disposable PANTIES wor...WAHAHAHAHAH...kuku rite...she ar.....hahahaha.....okla...go orh orh le....nite nite...

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