off day....

hmm...sian days for me...off day...nth to do...came hm...rot ard...eat a lot...play with my 2 dogs...watch tv...rot sum more...then nw...ready to slp...y hv my life become so meaningless?? cant mit bren bren liao...came bk for sooo long,onli met her once at the airport,went out once,came look for me makan once(abt 1hr) then 11 feb last time...then i will be gg bk aussie le...reli cant tahan the lonely life thr lor...wat to do??!!sianz..



heard tt the bus system here gona change like sydney kind soon..hahaha...hmm..my sem for sem2 wud end on 22 nov...which means i MAY return anytime earlier than 22 Nov la...yeah!!!i can c all my frens by then...hapi hapi....look 4ward lo...

hmm..i planned to live alone aft my contract ends on 21st july...wana go unilodge...hahaha...tho ex..since they sae they hv $$...then nvm la...dn care...today my parents psycho me go aussie lor..i came bk dn wana tok abt it,yet they kept blabbering..sianz...wat to do??haix....i can onli mit bren 1 more time...can c ting ting n elna for no more than 8 times...hahaha...n the rest for less than a mth...sadz...=(

SAD SAD SAD and SAD...

another day of wk...but itz a SAD SAD SAD day...got scolded like SHIT by HER!reli reli hate her...i duno wat i hv done in the past to deserve sucha present life...but im reli touched by my colleagues...they r all good ppl...all my angels...my good good frens...when im sad,they consoled me..other than bren bren,no1 eva been so good to me...reli thx assca,jia ying n ting ting...love u all loads..HAHAHA..im oways tryin to cover my sadness,trouble with laughter..bt today i reli cant ctrl..i dn wan my frens to worry for me..so no matter hw sad im,hw depress im,i wud TRY cover it la..bt apparently,i cudn't...duno wat to do lor...

emotionally...i reli dn wana leave...financially,$$ is a big issue wor...BUT im forced to go back aussie...cos of her FACE...haix..why on earth i hv such parents...ppl at work dn understand me...i do hv hidden truth abt my fam..bt so wat...such tings isnt very gd to share in here ba...hmm...

i hafta appear happy in front of my colleagues...i dn wan them to wori for me...bt itz so hard to hide...im 1 hu cant reli hide my expressions de...hw?i dn wana b thr alone...so lonely..no1 understands hw i feel...been cryin everyday...tears kp welling my eyes each time i tot of it...cant bear to leave...n worse of all when i tot of wat SHE tell me..im alr 22...why i still dn hv the courage to oppose her???why???i hate myself...hurt myself cos i hated myself...at times i do hv suicidal tots..

since abt 3 yrs old..u noe...every single tings done on me...i rem clearly...ppl may find it ridiculous bt true...i hurt myself once n again cos i hated myself...she reli made me hate myself more..she MOULD me into sum1 w depressions...to sum1 hu eva took depression medicine b4...to sum1 with NO HAPI childhood...no HAPI days..i reli envy ppl w doting parents..sum tho w/o doting parents,hv doting siblings..tts y i substitute my frens as my fam members..sum mk use of me etc..i dn mind..cos i jz wish for a happier life...

i miss HIM...but...haix.....i reli wan to c THEM,n HIM...i muz revert back to the hapi me again...i hv 2 days to settle myself in PP,then sat when i returned,i muz b a hapi hapi ger again..JUNIE..u can do it de...u noe...actualli aft i came bk,then i realised tt i treasure every single fren i hv..in the past,i hv bren,xuan,von,boo etc...nw...i hv few more,like ting ting,peilin etc..they may nt treat me as their besties,bt i jz wana let them noe tt i treat them as my besties...n i wun fail to treat every besties i hv wholeheartedly..my besties=my fam..i LOVE u all..i wun mind if u mk use of me etc..i reli dn wana leave...reli dn wana leave..HOW??=( crying bitterly...

tired...

yoz...itz been quite sum time i din update le rite...hahaha...aft wk reli tired to do anyting lo..i like sum of my colleagues at wkplc...fun fun fun...lol..tink i spent most of time with colleagues more than my own close frens..hahaha..met up with shan shan as well lo...hahaha..i love shopping..BUT onli when i hv enuf $$..hahaha...nw tt pay is here,i find no kaki lo...sad wor.... =(

Hapi bday xuanie!!hehe..enjoyed yr bday ma??hope so wor...mit up at my wkplc 1 day la...go eat tog..hahahhaa....same with dardar,booboo...hahaha...the other time met up with hannah...shes reli reli cute wor..heh..nxt time post her photo aft i hv got sum...so fast lo...few mths lata she turning 2...hahaha....my darling cousin...tho nv c her much..wahaha

hmm..sadded...sth wrong with connection...cant post photos...=(...nxt time ba...tata

life in singapore....

phew!!im back home...hahaha...so long din update blog le lo...lol...i noe tt....eva since i came back,lazy lo...plus nw work..worse....anw..me working at wintertime at suntec nw...free drop by visit visit me lo...i got soooo many stuff to tok about....mayb shall juz summarise...heh

ok...abt mitting up with frens....met up with xuan n ping once...bren oso once....boo past by wintertime tt day...lol...then she came in c me...so touched...heh...when mitting??fri can ma?lol...

worked in wintertime...so hapi...gif good svr...hapi customers...hapi me...hapi colleagues...hmm...reli bz lo...hahaha...i like the plc thr...cos the ppl thr la...of course not all la...first wud b peilin...hahaha...worked in mb with her b4...easily tickled girll...so cute...WAHAHA..then new colleagues bixuan,naza,vincent,ascca,jiangsheng(derek)..then eileen n henry n elna..knew them b4 le la..hahaha...then the ding ding da min de SIMON..wahaha..funi guy...no wonder every1 like him la..lol..

n lastly,wan teng..shes the ger i wana tok more abt...cos shes reli diff fr wat i tot she is..at 1st when i was working at mb,i knew her la..very stranger la..nth to tok...then hu noe,nw me wk at WT,she same as me wor..transfer thr la..hahaha...then we almost work tog everyday lo...our off days oso very similar..1 mth wun c her for 3-4 days onli lo..ok..cut tings short..i find her reli cute la..hmm...quite like her lo...BTH her de lo..disturb me..hahaha...bt had much much fun working with her la...last time i tot she fierce fierce..then she look older than me...bt in fact,shes onli 20..lol..another lil sis of mine..WAHAHA..nt bad ger la..days w/o her no fun..cos nobody to joke joke tok tok to me...hahaha...got chance post her photo...lol..

recently bought 1 mp3....reli love the mp3 loads lo..hahaha...then watched vcd shows during off days...hahaha...if nt helped pack up my stuff la...hmm...i tot of renting a rm wor...cos here no plc to slp le...duno hu wana rent to me??hahaha..go back tamp ma??hmm...*ponders*wahahaha...

time reli changed stuff..many many stuff...dn wish to tok much here...duno hw man..hais...c 1st ba...end of update....update sum time lata ba..heh..gg to slp n prepare for tmr battle le...tata...

i miss the old times....

woah..i cant believe it...thru facebook,not onli i managed to find sum of my pri sch frens,i even found my pri sch best fren..oh dear...i miss her loads...u noe..since P1,we were very good fren...my mum likes her a lot(other than natalie)...i wud stay over at her plc,we skate,swim,eat etc etc tog...n then,i was reli close w her sis as well...sonia(if i din spell wrongly)hahaa...GABY....!!ahh..im so so so surprised...n nw u r in NZ..woohoo~~we r reli near each other...i lose yr phone number tts y hard to contact ya..IF onli IJ toa payoh accepted me,we would b in the same sch,same class...awwww....sobx...

and to my surprise...she got a son...turning 3 tis coming feb...oooo....tings reli changed soooo much...hahaha...her son is reli cute n adorable..n she changed so much...i cud nt even recognise her...shes gg bk sing soon..yep yep yep!!reli excited n hapi..hoho...then i saw olivia,one of my pri sch clicks too..hahaha..seriously,we shall mit up as a grp wor..im getting reli reli excited...hahaha...shu fang...every1...woohoo~~hahaha...wow...cud nv finished talking...

aft my exams r over...wat i did was spend spend SPEND...bo $$ alr la...sadded..hahaha...went out everyday...buy stuff...jz paddys...n i spent abt 80 bucks...n last nite chiong a jap drama,lair game...woohoo~~itz a reli nice show..haha..me n weiie lik er.....dn nit to slp wor..hahaha...today went to a pub for breakfast...then went glebe mkt...reli nice stuff...followed by mkt city n lastly, we went to circular quay..the mkt thr....VERY VERY nice...all the artie stuff...all the bags,pendants etc...very nice...wow...if onli i hv $$$...hahaha...we went to 'pancakes on the rock' for dinnner...wah...we shld jz eat pancakes thr..reli nice..BUT NOT THE STEAK...kena cheated...bcame a laughing stock for weiie,fi fi,n her 2 bros...argh!!!@#$%^&...hahaha...my mouth actually cramped..diao...took afew pics...bt shall update sum other days...lazy...hehehe...yeah..ok..shall go watch drama liao..tata

exams r over...woohoo~~

hmm..i duno was it me tinking too much or wat..i jz find tings reli change le..reli change le..i hv no idea wat is gg on..felt so far away fr a close fren..duno hw to describe tho..n the worse ting is...i duno is i change or u change...i cant figure it out...totally lost n confused...watz happening nw???hmm...all along i tot long distance frenship is fine(nt r/s ma)haha..like norm kinda stuff...bt tink it all changed...many ppl..many tings...i reli duno tis sem i go bk is the rite ting...im scare i will feel weird n left out here...at 1st i anticipated so many stuff...w so many ppl...bt nw i reli feel tt i shld nt hv anticipated much..i duno wat to sae...haix...suan le...forget abt it...prob itz me being bad mood ba...wateva..~~

anw..im hapi...cos i hv finished my last paper today...woohoo~~it was so interesting...i was the 1st to leave..then i hv no choice bt to walk all the way to the front...then so paisey...every1 is lookin at me lo..sum even w their mouth open...reli tt kua zhang lo...i was tinking..they xian mu me...cos im the 1st to... ....... ......... FREEDOM~~wahaha..their expressions...reli cute...bt mk me reli paisey...

sayin abt exam...for today's paper...thx goodness i studied hard for HIV lo..1 of my qn abt tt lo...the ones i din study v hard all landed in MCQ..like cancer,pharmacology qns.,myocardiac infarction n ischaemia...hahaha...n all the STD,stap,strep etc microbes..i din study reli hard for tt..heng ar...hahaha...hapi...lol...im contented with my 40% components for all subj...n reli hapi for the 60% component cos im confident tt most paper i wud score ok...TINK i shld b able to get credit for all ba...IF my cohort nt every1 score well la..cos they gt scaling ma...if scaling then dangerous..WAHAHA..

i realised tt fr their 1st grade to 6th grade n high sch....they hv alr learnt a lot of wat i started learning in poly lo..sadded...hahaha...

hmm...hw shld i conclude...my papers were quite ez...esp the short ans qns...the MCQ r the harder ones...lol...yep...i din type wrongly....MCQ...the stress lvl nt tt high wor...so unlike singapore..wahaha...i planned to go afew plc..bt duno lei...haix..duno la...hmm...recently gt bullied again..sian...duno wat to do...haix...i miss u all..hahaha...then again...i anticipate in gg out w von n boo..wahaha..so hapi...like my 1st few yue hui...lol...

ok la...shall end here...go play my ds le...woohoo~~~n watch dvds....liar game...all the jap drama...chinese drama...yeah!!!wahahaha...

changes.....

hmm...i realised tings changed...even a frenship...hmm..bt it jz change...so itz nt jz bgr..frenship do change too...for long distance frenship...hahaha..hmm..ok...i hv bought for myself a DS lite today...was considering to get psp or ds..cos i like psp a lot too..hmm...psp more ex...dn tink i can afford la..so i got the ds bundle..the console,tog w a ratatouille game,n a 4in 1 pack for A$219...duno worth anot...wanted to ask von...bt too late le...cos i cant wait le..went to buy today..hahaha...planned to buy my sims,mario n sum brainy games..bt ren..certain games can wait till me go bk then buy..cheaper ma..lol...few more days..woohoo~~hehe..

bt end up,today din accomplished much...went shopping n makan..then slack at hm....wana study de..bt fi sudd tell me tt our hse gt maggots..waliu!!heng is nt my week of cleaning then kena..oopz...HAHAHA...hmm..2 more paper to go...then shuang le...can look ard...play ard..etc...lol..hopefully by tmr i can finish studyin..then sun shall go gloria jeans to dl shows n revise..lazy go sch la..haha..sure noisy..

i sumhw got the feeling when i go hm,i wun feel comfy..envir,everyting..wud b different...sure like cant fit in..wahahaha..yeah..tings change..i hafta accept tt fact...i duno...wana sae sth de..bt 4gt le...wahaha..

anw...sydney uni so proud tt in the world ranking,the rank went up fr 38th to 31st..hahaha...so kuku...tis year...woohoo~~sumtime it jz sound so good tt u r studyin at a prestigious uni...world ranking so high sum more...shuang~~haha..im nt tryin to show off here k..dn wu hui...hahaha...

mabel mama gg to brisbane nxt sem..late jan...awww...bt i planned to go during my winter hol..go c her is the reason..(bt the main one is hol..heh heh heh)...hmm..oso hv the plan to go gold coast w booboo n her boy??hahaha..duno..shall plan when i returned..okla...nth much to sae for nw..go mope mope...wahahha...tata

sianz...

HAHA~~hmm..whr shld i start???guess why im here??cos i cud not study...im left with a day now,n here im,blogging n wasting my time away...when im home,nth works for me..i cud nt concentrate...sianz...hafta piah tmr man...hmm...today paper was alright i supposed...for a scale of 80 marks,i expect to score at least a 60...the MCQ is tricky..i kena tricked a few times...heng i checked..lol...anw..managed to find carriageworks,i tailed a classmate of mine..hoho..oopz...

hmm...jz 1 paper down,n i hv the feeling tt my exams r over...shitz man!!haha...bt i planned to slp nw,SLEEP NW(singapore time:740pm)and wake up early tmr,go me hse dnstair enjoy a sumptuous breakie b4 i start wk in the lib.i specially love gg burkit-ford lib instead of medical or fisher lib..itz so quiet,nice..hahaha..near to my coffee area too!!hahaha..hopefully i cud finished by tmr nite,then wed morn shall test myself,b4 gg for exams...my paper is at 3pm,tts y i cud afford to do tt..hahaha...

anw..today i felt so pc..i was sitting rite at the front(apparently,im the last student) and the invigilators walked around loudly...bt when they tok to u,they whisper..u cant even hear wat they saying..humph!!hahaha..anw..recently it rained everyday...n guess wat...the weather is sooo cold...18degrees..piang~~i shiver like kuku nw...we r nv satisfied,,,hmm..when i hv temp gg up to 28-30 degrees,i wud wish for lower temp....nw tt i hv lower temp,i wana it bk up to 20+++ degree...human like me are such greedy n nv-satisfying ppl...hahaha...tts whr lies 1 of my imperfection...my horoscope saes i muz b perfect..bt we r nv perfect except God,my saviour,my best friend,my confidant,sum1 hu is 4eva thr for me..heex...

well well...shall stop toking so much le...i hafta go mit my zhou gong liao...hes waiting for a chess kaki..hoho..tata....

aussie comercial

here is another kuku commercial abt sony handycam..LOL..

stress ar~~

oooo....im getting really breathless as days go by...everytime during exams i felt tt way,ppl tell me itz stress..bt consciously,i dn feel a ting...tt breathless feeling reli xin ku..v tight chest...hmm...anw..recently im high on caffeine...i drank many cups of coffee daily...tink my BBB too good...dn allow stuff to get in,bt i jz wan it to b permeable to my caffeine..to kp me awake...haiyo...hw man???counting dn...1 more day to prepare for micro exam...dread tt day to come man...hahaha...

i tink im putting too much pressure on myself...i force myself to study all 4 units tis week,n i din mk it..it makes me reli unhapi...nw im forcin myself to rem every single word in the lec notes on micro...of course n understand...bt apparently,other than immune system,the rest is memorise..haa...at 1st reli angry w myself...feelin sleepy,cant breathe well,cant get into my head the stuff..so distracted...kp telling myself tt if i dn score,im not gona reward myself aft the exams...then i bcome better at rememberin stuff,bt more breathless..hahaha...bt tts the onli way to mk myself rem..hahaha..

reli wana score well...hw man??if i cant score,i wud be disappointed w myself,my parents will scold me badly as well..hw??sobx..wana tok to sum1...bt no1 i cud tok to...im jz so stress ar...haix..bt i miss the times when bren came over to my hse to study tog..hw fun n nice..hahaha..reminds me of many stuff as well...studied in sch lib..etc etc..hahaha..anw...i kp seein tis korean classmate of mine everyday..wahahaha..den we like...hey..u again...hahaha..etc..so kuku...her rxn reli big lo...hahaha...

waiting anxiously for gd tings to happen...wonder when??hahaa...anw...i wana either get ds lite or psp...any suggestion which is better???WAHAHAHA..ok...gona go slp le..tmr gg sch lib piah all the way..guess tmr i hafta drink at least 3-4 large cups of coffee..bt reli scare i will shake..caffeine ma..hmm..hw man??hahaha..nah..nth much le..tata...

how time flies~~

HAHA...changed song again...LOL...oh man oh man!!im undergoing a emotionally unstable period...exams time....itz so freaky...sumhw im confident tt i hv studied liao,bt then again,im scare...looking at my 40% coursework grade,im getting more stress each day..kp getting back more n more results fr everyting,prac reports,quizzes,prac exam,assessment etc..i hv good n unexpected results for most,bt the overall din add up to my expectations...onli 1 module i got 32% out of 40%, another module i gt 27% out of 40%..yuck!!i aim for 30 n above...ohno!!im so stress up nw..went to sch to study everyday,bt seems to me tt im lacking each day...perhaps i pushed too hard on myself...nxt wk i hv 2 paper,bt im forcing myself to study all 4 modules...im reli reli freaking out...my results...itz so haix...i wan more fr myself...felt so SLOW now..like im so laggin behind my classmates...i noe im not..bt i jz got tt feeling...tink is to demoralise myself more..im always lidat...hahaha..SIAO~~

recently go to sch,kp meeting my korean sch n classmates,n saw ryo...hahaha...so kuku..we talked..no matter hu i met with,bt after that,i cudn't study anymore...lol...sadded...anw..my 10days b4 i go hm,im gona go many places...lol...hv fun!!!hmm..i jz wana go bk nw...tis moment..bt when the moment i hv the tot tt im stayin at my OWN hm,slpin at the living rm,it mks me so SIAN!SIAN!!SIAN!!!haix..dn feel like gg bk nw...bt i reli miss my frens...hahaha...reli duno wat to do man!!dear dear!!hahaha

another reason i dn wana go bk is cos i gona miss all the good show...HOUSE...SO U TINK U CAN DANCE (aussie),SIMPSON,FUTURAMA,ARE U SMARTER THAN A 5TH GRADER,n all the FRI, SAT n SUN MOVIES..sianz~~hahaha..bt then again,u cant hv the best of both world...hafta sacrifice 1..HAHA..okla...i jz dn wana study tts y im here happily bloggin away..lol..gona go mug nw...(daydream i supposed)WAHAHA..BORING~~

Carleton Big Advert fr aussie...lol

okok...every1..tis is a kuku advert in aussie channel 7...hahaha...u all shld watch tis n luk at the lyrics...itz crap..LOL...i 4gt abt tis until i encounter it again..yeah..gt another source of stuff to post fr nw on...lol.... yipppeeee!!!

daylight saving....

shuns~~~i cud nt study liao..went to lib to study micro..able to concentrate..n my aim is to finish till lec 13,out of 26,and tmr cont..i hv accomplished tt b4 lib closed today..came hm,havin nth to do,i decided to study the remaining lectures,bt i cud nt...was it the house tt mk me dn wana study due to distractions?or was it juz me???*ponders*..tmr lib onli open fr 1pm-5pm lei..hw can i finished all 13 lectures??HOW??

anw...later..few hrs time..my time gona change le...i read abt it n realised tt i gona hv 23hrs a day instead of 24hrs..it occurs fr spring la..then fr autumn,i gona hv 24hrs bk..tis is to have longer daytime,shorter morn..bt true la..at 5am,here bright le..jz like singapore 7am wor...lol..weird yea?hahaha..hafta get used to it,or else i wun screwed up badly durin exam time..hahaha..

HOW ar??dying le la..cant get on with my work...anw...i HAVE decided liao...i noe wat i wana tk for yr 3 sem 2..hehe..i wana tk both neuroscience n immunology...HAHAHA...gona b tough for me..cos got lotsa essays n major report to do...hope i wud b fine...wana enrol today..BUT the system rejected me..sobx..hafta go student ctr to ask wat happened..mafan...waste my time..argh!!hahaha...nvm la..anw..am gg to the lib everyday nxt wk..hahaha..i love studyin in sch,info get in..n im more alert..lol...GOOD good..hahaha..

i wonder y my hse nearby kp having fireworks lor...every nw n then...fireworks...singie is like so rare..here i c until sian le...HAHA..boring~~..anw...recently realised sum prob w my body...wonder wat is happening inside??so worried..haix...ahahaha...bt i guess will be fine ba!!ok la..nth le..tata..

exams ah....EXAMS!!!AHHH~~~

this link below:

http://www.med.unc.edu/embryo_images/unit-welcome/welcome_htms/contents.htm

is abt embryology...onli for ppl interested la..my tut link..haha..it is actualli quite boring n complicated..bt sumtime looking at it,i jz find med sci so interesting..we learnt stuff lidat..we learn many many other tings..fun ya..heh..n itz interesting..aft fertilisation,fr 1 cell,to an embryo..dn u all tink itz amazing??woah woah!!haha..all of us,are intially jz a single cell..hahaha..n when i tot of defects in children,wonder watz wrong w their cell differentiation n development ne??hmmm..

ohno!!today marks the end of me lectures,lab n tut..hw time flies..im so scared nw..i wana study reli reli hard..fr tmr..i will b gg to either fisher or medical lib n study all the way till 14nov..yep..tts my goal!!so stress...hahaha...bt i believe i cud do it,with God's help n my will..yeah!!!heh...jz when i began to mk more frens,it marks the end of my yr 2 sem 2 with current classmates...shall mit again in yr 3 sem 2 if we r in the same course..heh..

anw...fr mon onwards...it will b 3hrs diff btn singapore n aussie time le..means cant c u all even more le...sobx..hw?how?How?HOw?HOW?HOW?lol...

jz note dn here..to remind myself nt to blog so much n study more...:

5th nov: microbes n body defences-unit 7

7th nov:hormones,reproduction n development-unit 5

12th nov:digestion,absorption n metabolism-unit4

14th nov:disease in society-unit 8

Junie muz jiayou wor!!!hahaha..siao...encourage myself..ok..shall go orh orh le...tmr shall piah all the way...hohoho...tata

reminiscing...fun...

hey hey hey!!!i certainly becoming a very sciencie blogger ya??lol..i gt another ting to share..hahaha...bt 1st...i feel so proud being a singaporean...Singapore airlines A380 jz landed in sydney nt ago..n it is quite a big news here..woohoo~~hahaha..itz BIG..nice...special..itz double deck...dn u tink itz cool??wow..i wana b in tt plane at least once man!!hoosh~~

ain't it gorgeous??i noe itz a lil small..oh well oh well!!im so proud for now..hahaha...

the medical show i was tokin abt..HOUSE..definitely a nice series..ppl hu love medicine..wud most prob love tis..as far as im concerned,i heard tt many pre-medic students watched tis..itz addictive ok..!!c'mon..hahaha...

awww...i miss the times..tis is part of my sec 5 class..i miss them..im sure sum of u hv seen me waving n toking to guys in the pic ba..hoho..SEC 5 FAITH...hip hip hooray!!*winkz*

hmm..St John's Ambulance rox!!haha..my juniors,officers n a guy fr my cadet..hoho..*salutez*

seeing tt reminds me of the old time..we been thru sad n hapi times tog in SJAB..so fun..so nice..awww...i miss those time...:1 for all,all for 1...hahaha...we wk tings out tog...we rebel against our seniors n officers tog..got scolded n punished tog..got loved by many of our officers..i miss u all!!!hahaha

Okok...my scientific stuff..lol..nv drink too much water...it wud impair our heart rate etc..too MUCH water is bad for health...ohmy...u noe..ppl telling us to drink 2L of water per day..dn do tt..hahaha...cos the food we eat etc..the water content is actualli quite high...nt entirely nt drink water...bt drink lesser..yeah...today's quote..lol...

hmm...watched so u tink u can dance..woohoo!!wat can i sae??BEAUTIFUL!everyting..itz so nice...hahaha...i duno whether u all hv watched..cat deely kp kena taken advantage of by a contestant..wahaha..poor her...lol...

counting down...32 more days...woohoo~~~hahaha...anyting else...hmm hmm...shall update again sum time ba...lol..shall tok abt the embryology tmr..itz reli interesting...hahaha...tata

INTERESTING..!!

hmm..ok..lets tok abt my lectures...was attending a lec abt biochem..n i realised tt walking mks u lose more weight than running...HEY!!!i din noe tt...did lim kah meng tell us tt when he taught us biochem??we were learning the same stuff...NADH=3ATP,fadh2=2ATP..u noe..electron transport chain bla bla..yep!!im learning it again..hmmm...*ponders*

ok..if u walk,with lil panting,it means tt yr white muscles are utilising long chain fatty acids(LCFA) n a lil glucose..showing tt more triglycerides are being broken dn,hence,less FATS in yr body...BUT once u start running,yr body wud start using glucose as the fuel to provide energy...Imagine...glucose is needed for yr RBC,brain n liver..it is the onli fuel they cud use..n once u start using them,YES..u will lose a lil weight..bt realise tt aft running,u wud feel hungry???n u will eat more...i read in an article...n i realised tt in fact,cos thr is a dip in bld glucose,tts y the brain signals u to eat..n u wud eat more than u nit!!Realise tt u wud gain weight faster even aft u hv lose weight cos of running???hmmm...interesting rite??itz sth worth tinking abt if sum1 plan to lose weight..hahaha...

MORAL of the story:if u wana lose weight,WALK more often...running doesn't reli help...!!!

I hv acquired more stuff studyin here..most of the stuff here i hv learnt b4..bt i learnt new stuff fr it..itz worth the while..n coming here let me learn to hv more faith,n commitment..really!!heex..i felt reli happy for the change..heh..

anw..today attended a vaccination lecture..i realised most of the vaccines i hv taken lei..even when they sae itz for developing country..hmm..like BCG-i had twice...Then why is ppl taking oral polio vaccine,while i took the injection one??i even needed 3 booster for tt..WALAO!!!hahaha..hmm...suddenly i find my course reli interesting...everyting is so cool..so amazing...so fun!!!EXCEPT EXAMS!!!lol..a simple body,having so many mechanisms n stuff..reli fun..i reli anticipate to cont studyin lo..hahaha...nt gona let sth as small as EXAMS to bring my interest down..i hope..WAHA..is my course the easiest to get into medicine??cos i went to a few webbies...n i realised tt them call ppl hu study Bsc Medical science,they call pre-medicine student..hmm..interesting isn't it???hoho..then hw abt those hu dn mk it thr???ahaha..or those hu wana do honours instead of medicine??LOL..kuku...

anw...at the Glebe hse,which is my hse..im the well-known no mind,or in another word,brainless..hahaa..i admitted tt as well la...lol...fi is simple mind,n weiie,complex mind..lol...oways laming abt many stuffs abt our mind...hmm...retarded hor??yup!!!no mind is lidat de...hahaha...yeah...shall stop yak yak for nw..tata...

SADDED!!!

hmm...wat i wana sae???im utterly disappointed w myself...DISAPPOINTED...haix...i din do well in my prac at all..i duno wat to sae...i cud nt do gram stain..the most basic ting..streaking was ok for me..i did it well!!bt gram stain??haix...bt it came to me tt many ppl din do well in gram stain as well..either they had prob with microscopy or entirely with gram stain..ESP ppl holding specimen B..the one i was holding..it was a relieve in a way..u noe..i felt better..cos im nt the onli one..then i was nervous..i din do well for viral stuff as well..as in..that particular qn,i mixed up with the 1st qn...oh man!!how STUPID can i b???itz entirely 2 diff qn..jz bcos i nervous..i tot it was the SAME qn..sad..for no reason i lose at least 2mks..it was abt virus..

Qn 1: How can u tell that patient is suffering fr VIRAL infection?
ANS:that there is an increase in lymphocytes than other WBC. This is part of my ans.

Qn2:Wat OTHER info tell u tt patient is suffering fr EBV infection from the results shown(Haem report)?
ANS: im suppose to write dn the same ans as above. High WBC,high LYMPHOCYTES. They shld b part of my ans.

N i was nervous..i ws tinkg,they cant possibly ask same qn wat..so i tot look for other info..in the end,i left out the lymphocytes ans..walao..wan to cry cannot cry..lidat i lost 7marks..5marks deducted cos i went to look at demo slides-the best way out..if nt my whole paper gone..sacrifice sum marks to help me..no choice...i broke a slide,failed 2 slides..watz happening to me??and the whole day...i was in a dazed..i cud nt pay attn in lectures..i kept yakking abt it..i hv nt much appetite..i noe..c'mon.itz onli 15% rite...bt it means a lot to me..im so scare..no matter hw i calculated,if i cant get into credit,i wud jz get a pass...i dn wan tt...i dn wan to live life like when i was in TP..jz pass wud do..i wana excel..bt it has been makin me reli tired n stress out..haix..

i hv totally lost ctrl of my emotions...i duno when i shld b hapi,n when nt to..when im angry,unhapi etc..i kept it to myself..i appeared hapi in front..when im hapi etc..i dare nt reli show out as well..was afraid ppl might tink im crazy,or showing off..being a human is hard..sumtime i wish i cud b a dog..able to express my feelings jz fr my tail...HAHA..

oh well...oh well!!tink during my study week,i muz study reli reli hard...planned to go sch library to study..EVERYDAY!!stayin at hm wud mk me very slack n lazy..NO!!i cant...i hv prayed..and i noe God wud help me to be motivated n study well n hard..HE wud b thr for me..Even today...i noe he is helping me..if he doesn't,i wudn't hv pass the streak plate,nor able to do the virus qn..All goes to his guidance..im alr v hapi..im jz sad cos once again,i hv failed gram stain..n i realised is eva since after attachment..b4 tt i was doing great w gram stain..hmm..*ponders*..isit psychological??

OK..end of sad stuff...nxt post shall b sth beta...HAHA

scary...

apparently..im scare...im nervous...i hv the feeling tt i will screw the hands on prac tmr..wat shld i do???i was told the format..itz scary!!each person has a invigilator..n tt person wud luk at u,STARE at u...walao...1 of my fren actualli tremble so much tt he ruined the agar...wa..tts serious business...muz they luk at u lidat??cant they jz leave to u to do??may luk at u occasionally,bt nt tt round eye spying....it is creepy alright...hahahaha...how???im scare...haix....

anw...was chatting w booboo..so fun...long time din tok to her le..hahahaha...miss u all gerls....all the good n fun times....ohh...haha...yeah...shld b all...am here to express tt im scare...hahaha...tts all!!tata

lousy me with lousy results..!!!

hahaha..finally finished my two papers today...tuberculosis paper were rather ez...im onli unsure of 2 qns out of 25...which means my chances of scoring to compensate for my 1st paper is on the bright side..lol..bt my 2nd paper,micro stuff one...im nt reli sure...bt i tink a pass is nt a prob,whether im able to score is another ting..hahaha...bt e gd ting is,im nt the onli one who tink the paper is tough,which means i still hv sum LIL tiny hope..hahaha..

hmm..im scare of the prac exam tis wed...afraid i wud screwed up in gram stain...streaking is nt much a prob for me nw...15%...so freaky...ahhh!!!hahaha...anw...my U7 first 10% i onli score 7.4... so if my micro theory prac exam dn score well,n this wed hands-on prac exam dn score well,im practically screwed..how??how???HOW??sobx..

i hv got U4 results for the 1st 30%..which is 22/30..now relying on my 10% peristaltic reflex report..if i dn score well,thr goes my aim n hope...i hv alr counted..i cant possibly score 10/10 for the report,which means i will score less than 30 for my U4 40% category...sadded...hw??U5 i onli gt the poster result,which is 10.5/15..tink i wud onli score 30 and below for all 4 subj...jialak..HOW???hahaha

then i hafta struggle reli hard for my final paper,if nt i cant score well la..isit??humph!!!hmm..anw...my labbie went wrong again..tis time nt bluetooth cant work,is the webcam cant wk..walao...lousy labtop....everyting went haywire..sian!!faster return to singie then cant get it settled...lodge complain man...gona b with me for yrs and it kept giving me prob..sian..

anw..itz fast...tis is my last wk to go sch le...tt time i was hoping it wud come fast,bt nw im a lil hesitant..hahaha...hmm...anw...any1 got job lobang when i go bk can tell me??hahaha..i wana wk..rottin at hm is no joke man!!hahaha...okok...wat now??hmm...yeah..shld be all for nw...tata..

juz a short update abt me life..hehe...

Gay (happy)..

1)i hv booked my air tix hm...

2) i scored 18/20 for immunology..which is a satisfaction for me..as i dn score well in immuno all along in TP..hoho

3)counting dn my days to end of exams..so shuang...~~jz abt a mth more..hurray!!!

4) tt stupid cockroach in my hse is dead..sumway or rather..lol

5) i hv finished the peristaltic reflex report..so shuang~~nw can concentrate on my exams nxt wk..

6)xuanie so swt...put me photo on her blog...she misses me...oohh!!hehehe...i miss u too xuanie!!

Woes(sad)...

1)exams..so scary...2 wks time...ahhh...~~~

2)sick for 5days alr...yet still no sign of recovery...fr a pathetic sore throat to fever,headache,cough,flu,insomnia,breathless,giddy,weak..n of course + sore throat..hahaha

3)a couple of unlucky days for me at hm n at sch..bt nah..dn wana mentioned it here..lol

4)Mon gt 2 papers-1 entirely on Tuberculosis and another on immunology,virology n microbes (bact) pracs...

5)Wed is micro practical exam..RED ALERT for me..lol

6)im nw confused with my electives...hmm...wat shld i do??2 wks more and i hafta enrol myself..

7)my macademia nuts expired..i haven started eating..sadded...forgotten abt it...lol

8)miss my frens..hw hv u all been??so long din chat w u all le..

9) weather fluctuation..a day the max is 18 degrees,n the nxt day 30+ degrees...scary weather..sumtime higher than singapore temp..

10)i miss singapore...ppl...food...shops...road...fun plc...everyting..inc the times in TP...auuu..!!

Think shld be all for nw..hehehe